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Another COLD day...

My friend started a new connection group tonight on Revelation so I did brave the bitter weather to participate in the study and I'm glad I did.

Mom didn't sleep well last night and wanted to nap today but couldn't fall asleep. We haven't read yet so I am going to make this blog very brief.

Mom received a letter from one of her grandson's today and my heart was discouraged; because there are so many unsaved people in our family and around the world. He is so lost and I can't express how important it is to share the good news. People need to hear that there is hope. Please be praying for me as I ask God to use me to intervene on his behalf. Pray without ceasing…

1 John 5:14-15 This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.

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Burrrrr...no need to venture outside today; it's too cold!

Mom had a quiet day; she never did get out of her pajamas.

I received an e-mail from one of mom’s friends who shared some life experiences with me; it was very heartfelt and meant a lot to me. She also wrote some sweet stuff about mom and how she is so missed and how she never remembers mom missing a day of work in the 13 years that she has know her. I let mom read some of the letter and tears just ran down mom’s cheeks. It gives me a warm feeling to know that so many people I have never met care so much about my mom.

Thanks everyone for your love and kind words, your prayers and your encouragement. It means more then I think you will ever realize.

1 Peter 3:8-9 All of you should be of one mind, full of sympathy toward each other, loving one another with tender hearts and humble minds. Don’t repay evil for evil. Don’t retaliate when people say unkind things about you. Instead, pay them back with a blessing. That is what God wants you to do, and he will bless you for it.

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I know I’ve written about this already but I can’t help but share it again, mom is just reading away, not only is she reading with me, she is reading on her own and has read Genesis and now she’s in Leviticus. She's also reading The 40 Days of Purpose and a few other Christian based books on the side. She's on FIRE! She told me that she can't get enough of it...and she’s understanding it and asking questions; that's the Holy Spirit working in her. Totally cool! I love to see a baby Christian seeking God with all they have, that's the way we should always be no matter where we are in our walk with God.

Revelation 3:15-16I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.

Whoa…God would rather have us hot or cold, not lukewarm. We need to choose what it’s going to be…are we going to follow Him with our whole heart or nothing???

Galatians 6:9 Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.

If you want to have that same intensity that my mother has; ask God to give you that desire, that appetite that passion that craving that hunger that thirst and He will because His word says it and the BIBLE is God breathed, its complete truth!!!

Matthew 7:7 Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

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Mom is having problems with her new glasses, she can't see through the bifocals so it is causing her headaches. She has another appointment on Saturday to check her prescription. Her headaches have been in the back of the head and neck where that spot is, hope it's nothing to be concerned about.

Mom woke up this morning with a sore throat and she said she felt a lump as she swallowed. Don't know what that is...

The doctor put her on some sleeping medicine since she has insomnia and we think they have been giving her nightmares. She's had some bad dreams so I hope that gets better for her or maybe God is speaking to her through these dreams.

She still is doing good and in good spirits. She is walking so well and feels no pain there just in her lower back once in a while.

We are in the 3rd chapter of Acts now.

As for my blog yesterday...I walked for an hour and ate all good stuff today. I want to take care of my body, it's hard; it's a commitment. If I fail I know I can come to Him and I know His mercies begin a fresh each day. Please be praying for me and my two girlfriends; Michelle and Stephanie, we are doing this together. I pray that whatever it is that you need to change; maybe it's the things you watch or the places you hang out, or the music you listen to, or the clothes you wear. We can do it together, there is strength in numbers!

1 Thessalonians 3:13 May he strengthen your hearts so that you will be blameless and holy in the presence of our God and Father when our Lord Jesus comes with all his holy ones.

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I had a long week with home schooling and I was not feeling well and I had a doctors appointment that I was a little anxious about, the week was tiresome so that may have played a factor as to why I was feeling the way I felt this week; like I was spiritually resting. Come today, Sunday I didn’t “feel” like going to church. I ask God “What is it that you want me to change.” He spoke so loud and clear…I work in you, you don’t have to and you can’t do it on your own! Oh…oh. Talk about humility. I thought I figured that one out already. The problem I was facing is not important, what God wanted me to change was. I was being a hindrance to my own spiritual wellbeing…ouch that hurts. So here I am reevaluating myself; asking God what He wants me to learn, again! He’s always teaching me something, the question is am I willing to be obedient. He is my teacher, I am the student.

I have this beautiful moment in time to watch my mother grow in the Spirit. We are reading together, she’s reading the bible on her own, her attitude is softer, and she’s sweeter, kinder and so delightful to be around. I am witnessing how God is moving through her everyday. It’s almost breath taking. We live by faith not by sight but I see; I see His Majesty. I pray that God will heal her and that she can be a witness for Him. Mom did not use her body as the Holy temple that it is. She abused it for many years; drinking, smoking, etc… and she quit, she is gaining strength each new day and what a testimony it is already but God’s not done with her, I just know it.

I just want to talk about our bodies being a Holy temple and this really goes out to all my loved one’s still drinking and/or smoking. This is difficult because you never want to hurt someone’s feelings but I am not speaking on my own accord, I am speaking from God.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20 Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.

He has created us to be in His image, he made us, and we are something unique and special. God calls us to take care of His extraordinary creation, that YOU…

When we become God’s chosen people, He wants us to be transformed by the way we think so if you think you can’t quit, you are thinking with the worlds standards…

Philippians 4:13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Pray with me right now.

Heavenly Father, I thank you Father for the beauty of your creation. Thank you for giving me life and breath. Lord I am sorry that I have abused and neglected my body. I know that my body is a Holy Temple, it’s not mine but yours and I want to treat it will love and honor because I know it glorifies you. Lord I can’t do this on my own, I need your strength. You are a faithful God who will help me in my time of need and when the temptation get’s too overwhelming, I know I can look to you and I can stand firm on your promises. Please help me to be obedient to you. I ask these things in Jesus Name, Amen!

I pray that this is a new time, a new day, a new hour, a new person. That you would allow God to work in you! Do you believe that God can change this for you? Do you have hope in Jesus? Ask God to give you the hunger for change; the thirst for obedience. Stop making excuses, and as I write God has convicted me of my own sin, overeating. We can come together in unity and fight the good fight against Satan. Do you know how happy it makes Satan to see that you and I haven’t fully committed ourselves to God? Do you want to commit with me right now and spit Satan back into the pit where he belongs? Then make a comment on my blog, e-mail me, or call me, whatever you have to do to connect with me and we will come together with God as our strength and we will win because Jesus has already won the victory and when God is on our side who can be against us!
Amen
Amen

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I love listening to music…I love singing…I love to worship God and I don’t want to wait until a Sunday service to do it. Here are some links to some of my favorite worship songs:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TKijL5BnJtg&feature=channel_page
More of You Jesus

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rlBAf_SKwPQ&feature=related
Jesus Messiah

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wwJEdo1FlMo
From The Inside Out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6b35E8zzASk
Our God Saves

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UBmTEFBE34Y&feature=channel_page
Children and Kings

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8zSmICsax3o&feature=channel_page
Holding Onto You

John 4:23-24 Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth."


Mom is doing great! She is walking well and eating well and she is ready to do something, anything; she is bored! She misses her work too. I am still reading to her everyday. Today we read about Lazarus. I have a song about him too!

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The definition of Change: to become different, to become altered or modified, to become transformed or converted.

That definition could come straight from God’s word. 2 Corinthians 5:17 Those who become Christians become new persons. They are not the same anymore, the old life is gone. A new life has begun. But it doesn’t end there. Philippians 1:6 I am sure that God who began a good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on that day when Christ Jesus comes back again.

God did not create us to stay as we are. What good would that do? Nothing. So change is good, sometimes it hurts but they are good growing pains. I am please to keep writing about the changes occurring in my mother and also the changes taking place in our relationship. God is good, let Him in, allow Him to change your heart and the way you think and feel. Each of us has something to offer the Lord. Each of us has something we can change to bring glory to our Father. Ask seek knock and the door will be open to you.

I read to her today…we are having good discussions. I can’t tell you how important this time with mom means to me. I feel so so blessed!

Mom brought us out for lunch today to celebrate Fayth birthday which was on the 3rd and Ben’s birthday which is tomorrow. She just loves the “O II” restaurant in town.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hhbyISg66q8&feature=channel_page

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Happy 14th Birthday Fayth!

Time goes by so quickly; it brings me to wonder how much time we spend on earthly matters when the real purpose for living is in Jesus Christ. Time. How do we spend our time? When I was “younger” I made a mess out of my time. I really wondered why God allowed me to be changed by Him. I am not worthy… I understand now that it’s because of His grace. He sent His Son Jesus to make all things new. It was also my willingness to admit I was wrong and be humble. God has taught me that living is not for me but for Him. He gave me this life; he will take it away someday. He is the One who gave each of us breath, does it not make sense that we should give back to Him what He gave? So many people lost in this world. They desire money, material possessions, bigger this better that, my way or the highway and it’s all about selfishness. Those in my own family are lost to this world; even those closest to me. It says in Gods word that families will be against each other for the sake of following Jesus. Matthew 10:21-22

I see some people in my family making choices that make my heart drop. The places they choose to be or the shows on TV they watch or the material they read. And I know that they think we are judging them but the truth is this, you can’t change what you don’t know and being in God’s word is an instruction book to living life. So it’s not that we are judging, it’s that God has revealed truth to us.

I come to the conclusion that although it’s sometimes challenging I need to be what God wants me to be. If I get persecuted, or my family and friends gossip, it’s not my wrath but God’s; Romans 12.

I pray that those lost in my family can be saved but not just for the sake of getting a free pass into heaven but being transform from the inside out. To know their purpose and to be rewarded in heaven for following a God who has created them.

I see my mom being transformed from the inside out and it’s one of the most beautiful things I have ever witnessed. Who would have thought…but I am reminded of that scripture when Jesus said “you of little faith?” And I don’t want to be of little faith. All things are possible to those who believe.

Mom had another great day! I read to her about the lady at the well. How she came to the well at noon because of her shame but How Jesus gave her living water. Oh thank you Jesus that we don’t have to go thirty.

Psalm 90:12 Teach us to make the most out of our time, so we may grow in wisdom.

Ephesians 5:15-20 Be careful how you live, not as fools but as those who are wise. Make the most out of every opportunity for doing good in these evil days. Don’t act thoughtlessly, but try to understand what the Lord wants you to do. Don’t be drunk with wine, because that will ruin your life. Instead, let the Holy Spirit fill and control you. Then you will sing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs among yourselves, making music to the Lord in your hearts. And you will always give thanks for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=suBPq0o3Yvw

Please click on this song, it is one of my very favorites. You will just feel the presence of the Holy Spirit. Please listen to it and let God work in your heart.

Blessings to you!

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Mom's still in good spirits today. She had a check-up and everything is fine; her blood work, weight, blood pressure; everything looks good. She doesn't go back until January 27, 2009.

We went shopping and she bought a bigger refrigerate for upstairs.

We read together today.

She seems so happy...

The children are really enjoying grandma being here. It's so sweet!

It was a LONG day so off to bed to read I go...

Psalm 32:8 The Lord says, "I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you."

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Happy New Year!

2009

It's been on my heart for sometime now to start reading passages from the bible to mom everyday. And from time to time I would think of asking her and this morning I prayed and asked God to give me the words; so I went upstairs and I said "mom I need to ask you something, I would like to spend some time reading God 's word to you everyday, it's important to me." and she responded very well to my request. The neat thing is later on when I went to check on her she told me that she had been thinking of asking me to do that very thing. This will be an important time for both of us and I thank God for His timing. I think the reason I hesitated to ask mom in the beginning of her stay here was probably because the timing was off, that's why I believe God had me wait. She wasn't ready and she could of told me no. I am usually the one who cannot wait especially if I see what good can come out of it but God has shown me in great detail how to wait on Him. Our intentions can be very good, our timing can be off. We must wait upon the Lord.

Tonight we prayed and I read to mom. I am starting in the Gospel of John. I look forward to our days to come so we can grow in our faith together. This is the best well spent time I have ever had with my mother and I am excited and come with great expectations from my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

I am so thankful...God is a God of restoration! He is the great Restorer and the Mighty Healer. He has restore my relationship with my mom and He has healed the hurt and pain and He has given me my mother. God does answer prayer.

Psalm 73:24-26 You will keep on guiding me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny. Whom have I in heaven but you? I desire you more than anything on earth. My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sR8rlTIU8_Y&feature=channel_page

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Today was a very cold brisk day. One of those days where you want to stay inside, sit by the fire and drink hot coco! But we went out; mom wanted to go to the Christian book store and on the way there I went right through a stop light, I couldn't stop...the roads were to slick. It made mom sick to her stomach. I just smiled and thanked God for protecting us.

We had a wonderful visit with Aunt Sharon & Aunt Charlene; we missed you Aunt Carol, hope your feeling better. Thank you for sharing your time with us, I know everyone is busy these days so again thank you for spending time with us. Mom was so happy to see you! And so was I.

I was able to get on line tonight and get mom's Medicare D finished. I pray I picked the right plan for her. It took some time to go through all the plans but it's done now so mom won’t need to worry anymore. Ben was helpful too. He was able to get me started.

I almost forgot it was New Years Eve; Fayth just came in here to ask me what we were going to do, so I better find something fun to do. I will probably call my friend Michelle... or the family Christian radio station will be at skate rink tonight, maybe I'll take mom roller skating!!! She use to love roller skating!

Since it's almost a new year, let us be reminded that it doesn't take a new years resolution to change, God can change our hearts any day, anytime, anywhere.

Lamentations 3:23 Great is thy faithfulness; His mercies begin afresh each day.

May you have a Blessed New Year!

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Mom had a great day, she was feeling good and full of energy. She wanted to take a drive and feel the warmth of the sun on her face and she was cracking up laughing for no reason...mom and I laughed and laughed, that kind of laugh you get when you just can't stop and you forget what your laughing about. She had a wonderful day! We were driving to Wal-Mart to get her eyes checked and she said "I feel like Jesus healed me" Oh Lord in Heaven I pray for that to be true!

It was a beautiful day!


Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will direct your paths.

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F_QihM7oMDY

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Mom watched her video last night from all of us kids. She wanted someone to watch it with her so I did. She cried and laughed and cried some more... After watching it I found myself being so sad...There was something missing in that video. It wasn't love nor affection towards mom, because we all really love her, I think it was childhood. I thought of my relationship with my mother and I compared it to the relationships I have with my own children. I missed out on so much with my mom...someone to read me books and tuck me in at night and talk to me when I needed some advise, or just talk to me. I am sad that so much time was wasted...But I have time now, time the Lord will allow and I am thankful.

I remember as a teenager feeling so lost and just wanting to die. I felt I got a raw deal out of life and didn't know a reason for living. I would get myself in these deep deep depressions and thoughts of suicide would run ramped in my head. I remember hatred would flow through my veins. Hatred towards my mother. I had no respect for her..."Has anyone ever asked you if you could change anything in your life what would it be"? I use to say nothing because I am who I am because of my past. But I would of changed the way I treated my mother. Regret would fill my heart if I let it but Christ has shown me how to forgive even if I am the one who needs forgiveness.

I could sit and wondering my life away but I don't have the time or energy. Instead I can make the most out of it now and ask God to keep molding me and shaping me to become the person He wants me to be.

Mike and Shanna paid us a surprise visit today. It was nice getting to know Shanna some more. I made delicious homemade pizza for dinner. But who knows where the pizza cutter went!

Habakkuk 3:17-19 Even though the fig trees have no blossoms, and there are no grapes on the vine; even though the olive crops fail, and the fields lie empty and barren; even though the flocks die in the fields, and the cattle barns are empty, yet I will rejoice in the LORD! I will be joyful in the God of my salvation. The Sovereign LORD is my strength! He will make me as surefooted as a deer and bring me safely over the mountains.

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Pictures taken tonight at the Christmas Eve Service. The Worship Team and The Mai Family.

A Love So Amazing...

The greatest gift is Jesus!

Tonight was beautiful, we had an evangelist Christmas Eve message where many were saved!

After the service Ben took our family home to start our tradition of reading the book "The Tale of Three Trees" retold by Angela Elwell Hunt. Mom loved the story and as always it made me cry. Another tradition in our family is to write a letter to Jesus and share what our gift is to Him each year. I told mom that if she wanted to write a letter she could, I said that last year Fayth told Jesus she was going to give Him more faith and trust. And this year Dawson wrote that he was going to give Him the gift of more prayer. And do you know what mom said?!? She said I'm going to give Him my heart! I said "that's the best gift you can give" and we cried... Thank you Lord Jesus!

John 3:16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

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It’s Christmas Time!

We had our family Christmas party on Saturday, December 20th, 2008.

We played games like; The Christmas Jar (this game is all about a Christ Centered Christmas), Take Your Pick, Apples to Apples, Linkity and we had our white elephant gift! And we ate and ate and ate! But before we ate we prayed a blessing on us and thanked God for the gift of Jesus. I pray that a tiny seed was planted into the hearts of many.

Mike Jr. and his family were not feeling well; they came down with the flu. They were missed! I pray for a quick recovery and hopefully we will see them soon.

Mom doesn’t know this yet but all of her children put together a tribute for her on video. Each of us took our turn sitting by the fireplace talking to mom from our hearts. She will receive that on Christmas Day. It will be a very special gift.

I soooo see God’s favor in my life…I see Him working in ways that I could never have imagined. God has taken my mothers illness and brought us children closer together and brought mom to Jesus. I received a call from Mike on Sunday, I couldn’t believe it. We talked about God. Mike wanted to know his purpose. I told him that each of us has been blessed with a gift from God and we are to use it for His glory. I told him that this life is preparing us for the future; the future will be either heaven or hell. What we do today matters, do we want to live for ourselves and have eternal agony or live for Jesus and have total peace. Mike said he believes that the devil is real. I said to him; you are right, he is real and he wants your soul. Are you going to let him have it!!! We talked for an hour, PLEASE PLEASE be praying that God will use the words He gave me to bring Mike to salvation. First mom, hopefully Mike….Do you see God’s perfect plan in all of this…God is blessing this family. God’s love is never too late to accept. He is waiting patiently for the lost.

Thank you everyone for your prayers!

Enjoy the pictures and click on them to be enlarged.

Have a very Blessed Christmas!

2 Corinthians 5:17 Those who become new Christians become new persons. They are not the same anymore, for the old life is gone. A new life has begun!

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It was a quiet day with mom. She wanted to go through some of her things and clean her bathroom. She finally played solitary today. She hasn’t played since she’s been here. She went to bed quit early; 8:30 p.m. Tomorrow if she's feeling up to it, she wants me to take her Christmas shopping for her great grandchildren.

We are having a family Christmas party on Saturday! I am so excited and looking forward to our time together! We’ve only had one of these in the past, about 13 years ago. I have some games we’re going to play and I am going to incorporate scripture and the reason why we celebrate this season. Please be praying for my family to have a pliable heart and an open spirit!

My friend Michelle had an idea from God to purchased thousands of accessories and then give them away. On Tuesday the kids wrapped over 500 presents, today they handed out 500 gifts to one of the local schools. I was blessed! I know those children receiving the gifts were blessed too! The boys and girls club will also be receiving gifts. Thanks Michelle for allowing God to use you to touch the lives of the little children! Click on the picture to enlarge.

Goodnight!

Matthew 18:20 Where two or three are gathered together because they are mine, I am there among them.

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I’m sorry I haven’t been on to blog…it’s been so busy.














Mom had her last radiation treatment on Tuesday. The nurses came in her room with a balloon and an angel teddy bear clapping and singing congratulations for the completion of her radiation. The cancer center is so sweet! She has no fever, although they took blood work from her to check her red & white blood count, just to make sure there’s no infection anywhere. If she has a fever again; she can take Tylenol and if it gets past 101-102, she will have to be seen; until then Mom doesn’t go back for three weeks! It will be a nice rest for all of us.

I put some Christmas lights upstairs so she has something Christmassy to look at. She didn’t want a tree because of the cat. There really pretty…

I had to go upstairs to put laundry away tonight and I found mom crying again…God is so awesome. He gave us a special moment together. We cried and we prayed and the angels are rejoicing. My mother is saved! My eyes are filled with tears of happiness and my heart is filled with thankfulness. God confirmed it when mom saw the reflection of the Christmas lights on the TV screen in the sign of a cross with Jesus wrapping His arms around her. The Holy Spirit was all over me…I want to write about what was all said but it was so…powerful. I can’t find words to express what took place. It was total God doing what He does best, allowing Him to do His work and to TRUST.

Mom asked me tonight to forgive her for not always being the mother she should have been and even though that came to pass a long time ago, I believe she needed to know that she was forgiven. And I needed her forgiveness too. Thank you Jesus!

Aunt Sharon, Aunt Charlene, and family, please let your hearts be overwhelmed with great joy, mom will be going home to be with Jesus. I have no doubt anymore. Please continue to be in constant prayer for her relationship with Jesus to grow stronger during this time. We talked about our sin, we talked about God’s grace, we talked about hope and we cried a lot. Mom was speaking words of a believer, it was amazing!

Mom was worried that her kids will fight after she's gone but I reassured her that God has used this time to draw us closer and she needed to hear that Connie was going to be ok. And she will. God uses hardships to draw us closer to Him and one another. I can seeing God working in so many area's and in so many dynamics.

Praise God!

Oh...my son Nick received his drivers licence today!

Joel 2:32 Anyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved. There will be people on Mount Zion in Jerusalem who escape, just as the Lord has said. These will be among the survivors whom the Lord has called.

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Mom’s has a fever. Last night it was 102.4 -102.9; she also had a stomach ache. This morning it was 101.0 and this afternoon it was 99.2; tonight she wouldn’t let me take her temp but she says she’s feeling better. If it goes back up I will be taking her to the ER. I have a feeling the cancer center will want to give her some fluids tomorrow. She ate some streak, rice, and corn and fruit salad for dinner but just enough to maybe feed a two year old. I’ve learned to give her very small portions so it’s not overwhelming for her. The thought of food makes her sick. She definitely needs to be drinking more…

She slept most the day…

I found her crying again…my heart breaks for her. God is the only One who can give her the comfort she really needs; that peace. I pray God can use the people around her to help encourage her during this time. Prayer is so important and powerful; please continue to pray for her. Thank you!

Philippians 4:7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8welVgKX8Qo

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The nutritionist was very helpful and gave us great tips on how to add extra calories into mom’s diet. The doctors said she can not lose any more weight. She ate pretty well today. She still has no appetite but she is trying hard to eat.

Randy had to come into town to pick up a manual for his snowmobile so he came by for a visit. God is at work here because I have never spent so much time with my brother. It is so nice to be building a relationship with him after all these years.

We also had Kathy and Cindy come over from mom’s work. They came bearing gifts again! As you can tell from the picture! They have been so sweet helping me with paper work and showing mom so much love and kindness. They have done so much for her I can’t even tell you. Thanks for the turkeys! Mom has appreciated everything everyone has done for her. I appreciate it too!

I’m going to bed, I’m just as tired as mom today…

2 Corinthians 9:8 God will generously provide all you need. Then you will always have everything you need and plenty left over to share with others.

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Mom’s oncologist is very nice and very thorough. He spoke in terms we could understand. She opted not to do chemo right now. Her oncologist is going to meet with her once a month to see how the cancer is progressing then she could choose at a later date to take chemo if she wants to.

He said the radiation will work up to 4 weeks after completing the sessions. Her last treatment is next week Tuesday. She will get a CAT scan and blood work next month. The doctors can not cure mom; they can only help control the cancer. God the Creator of life and breath can heal her if it’s in His will.

I asked him how fast the cancer could spread and he said he really doesn’t know but if he was going by how fast the tumor grew in her pelvic area, it took three month to go from nothing to 45 X 37 millimeters. A significant growth. They also want to monitor the spot in her skull. Her blood pressure was better today. She’s drinking more but still no appetite yet.

Pam came for mom’s appointment; it was so nice having someone else there with us. We had fun teasing mom about the doctor, she wondered what he looked like so we gave mom a silly fake description…anyway it was funny. It made mom laugh which sometimes is the best medicine. We had a little bit of a wait so Pam and I played I Spy and mom joined in on the fun! We went out for lunch afterward. The picture is from today!

James 1:2 Dear brothers and sisters, whenever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for joy.

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Yesterday I needed to go through some important paperwork with mom. It was for her accelerated life insurance benefit. That was tough…mom was crying. We didn’t even finish it because it was just too difficult to go through it.

Just before falling asleep early this morning I sensed fear and deep sadness. I pleaded with God to please heal my mother. There’s not enough time…I need more time with my mother. I need more time.

I didn’t always have a close relationship with my mother; only in the last 14 years has our bond grown stronger and that’s only because God has shown me how to humble myself where I’ve been wrong and extend grace and forgiveness even if none is given back. I will cherish ever moment we have left together.

Her vitals were not good today. Her blood pressure was extremely low and she has lost 10-11 pounds. They wanted to give her an IV but she refused. If she comes in tomorrow and her vitals are still not good they will be keeping her for fluids. She meets with the oncologist and the nutritionist tomorrow. Pam is trying to get off of work so she can join us for her appt. with the doctor.

2 Corinthians 12:9 Each time he said, “My gracious favor is all you need. My power works best in your weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weakness, so that the power of Christ may work through me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Dca0P7w9ZQ&feature=channel

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Monday starts another week of radiation...she didn't want to go today; she wanted to stay in her warm cozy bed. I don't blame her, I wanted to too. The cancer center is so good at taking her in right away. I don’t think we ever had to wait long. Usually by the time I park the van she’s already in with the nurse. Mom was out so fast; the boys didn’t even have a chance to finish their math.

There are two “door greeters” at the hospital. Steve is funny, always cracking jokes and being sarcastic. At first mom didn’t like it but now she’s warm up to him and is sarcastic right back. I can’t remember the other guys name, he’s more serous, and maybe mom can get him to smile.

Mom’s been waiting for me to get my Christmas decorations out so she could get in the spirit. So I brought most of it out and set nearly all of it up. It took me from 1:30-9:30 p.m. and then mom was too tired to come down to see it. She’ll see it when she comes down in the morning.

The days seem mundane. I want a chance to have some deep open discussions but mom sleeps a lot and according to this book I’m reading, I have to look for the signs from her to have those conversations. Am I wasting precious time, am I losing opportunities or do I need to have more patience’s?

I know that God is not a God of confusion, which only comes from the god of all lies. I am praying for discernment.

Psalm 40:1 I waited patiently for the Lord to help me, and He turned to me and heard my cry.

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Church was wonderful…I love going to church, I’m like a child who wants to go to Disney world. I look forward to worship, I always want my heart and ears to be open for the message, I love the afterglow of the service where we have open worship and I love spending time with my brothers and sisters in Christ.

We had Ethan’s 8th birthday party with our family and friends today. The kids went sledding down the big hill and had a blast! Ethan was knocked down by John and David as they came rolling down but he was fine. Ethan received a lot of nice gifts.
Thanks everyone!

Barb, mom’s friend of 32 years rode along with Pam so she could visit with her. Barb has three girls, Michelle, Carrie and Shawn and we still remain in contact with all of them and their families. It’s been nice having long time friends like the McKinnon girls.

Mom and Barb were upstairs talking for long time. I pray there conversation was meaningful. I’m sure it’s difficult; this is hard on all of us. It’s not easy to see someone you love dying. Although I will never doubt God’s healing power and if He decides to heal her...that would be an amazing.

Mom was in some pain today; she was feeling stiff in her hip. She had a stomach ache too. She did eat more today so I don’t know if that’s what it's from. She’s been sleeping since 4:00 p.m. when most everyone left the party. I wish there was something I could do for her. She was sharing with my friend Stephanie, Barb and my mother in law Lynda that she feels good for the most part and doesn't' understand how the cancer is affecting her body. Her lungs feel good and that's where the cancer started. We meet with the oncologist on Friday so I will be able to ask some difficult questions.

As a Christian I know God has something to show me. He wants me to take this experience and learn something valuable. God is teaching me to serve, to fill the need. Most importantly He wants to show my mom His everlasting love and compassion. He is longing for her to draw near to Him and accept God’s Son who came to earth, died and rose again for you and me.

Time to go check on mom!

1 Corinthians 7:17 You must accept whatever situation the Lord has put you in, and continue on as you were when God first called you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k8gkDiTvloc

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Burrrrrr…to brisk to go out today…although Aunt Sharon was brave enough to weather the cold to come for a visit. Mom and Aunt Sharon spent some time talking while I home schooled the boys. Then the two little ladies ventured downstairs to chat with me for a while. Thanks for coming to visit us today Aunt Sharon!

Mom was walking a tiny bit without the walker but the doctor told her not to do too much because that hip is so fragile, it can break at any time. She went through the rest of her stuff in the spare room, mostly clothes and pictures to sort through. Her spirits seem good.

Mom was telling me about Mrs. Heiress, the cook from Boulevard School. She knew mom loved orange juice so she would secretly call mom over for a glass while everyone else got milk. That is a nice memory mom has from her childhood.

Mom just finished up her liver and onions…I personally have never tried it. Now she is settling in her bed watching the catholic channel. I hope she sleeps better tonight. I pray for peace, peace like a river.

For the past 9 months I have made a commitment everyday to read Romans 12 along with our worship team for as long as God leads us. Those 21 verses have touched my life and my soul. I picked this scripture because it’s all about being a living sacrifice for God; dying to self so God can transform you. Pastor calls it saturation reflection. Where you take scripture and read it everyday for a year. It’s amazing to see God at work in our hearts. He has so much to teach us if we’re willing and obedient.

God’s word comes from Romans 12:1 Therefore, I urge you, brothers to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God – this is your spiritual act of worship.

Paul is pleading with us to see what God has done for us and because of His great mercy to give back our heart, mind and will over to God. Sometimes this means we have to swallow a big piece of humble pie. If you can’t grasp the concept of being humble, look to the cross. Jesus was the most humble and He should be our example.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyR0lwO-nXc

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Mom met with the doctor this afternoon. The prognosis is still the same, by definition she has stage 4 carcinoma cancer that started in the lungs. She has a mass in her right lung, a lymph node in the middle of the chest and a new finding in her skull. The doctor said he may want to biopsy the 5 millimeter nodular. She did have an MRI back in June, they thought they found something then but the result was a normal aging brain. This doctor said it is not the same finding; this one is located in a different area. We don’t know if the cancer spread to her brain or if it’s something else.

I asked the doctor many questions and I have many more, some will have to wait until we meet with the Oncologist next week Friday. He will be talking to mom about the pros and cons of chemo and she will have to make a big decision.

Mom said she doesn’t want to die in the winter. I told her she was going to be around to help plant my garden. I am going to make a place for her to plant a flower garden so every year we can see her flowers bloom. I think it would be a wonderful remembrance of mom.

Mom had another run in with the snake! We figured out that he was lifting the top of the cage now that he is bigger and stronger. She said if the cancer doesn’t kill her, the snake will!! I called Pam up and asked her to take the snake, since Sheldon was the one who gave it to Fayth for her birthday 4 years ago. At least mom is a good sport about the whole thing and we’ll have something to laugh about.

Here is a picture of mom and the beautiful flowers she received from her friend Ralph. They are just gorgeous!























Let our hearts reflect on Isaiah 41:10 Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will uphold you with my victorious right hand.

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To be honest….I am so drained today, I don’t feel like blogging. I am emotionally, spiritually and physically drained…I realize we will probably have days like this.

I am sitting here thinking of what I should write and I have thoughts but I can’t get them to make sense. I need to get recharge, re energized, renewed. The only way I know how to do that is get in the word and take time with God.

I am trying to find balance with being a Christian, wife, mother, teacher, worship leader and caregiver. I am learning and I am praying for a teachable spirit. This I know for sure; I need my time with God to be filled with His spirit so I am able to be all that God wants me to be…

My brother Randy came for a short visit right before dinner. I myself am enjoying our little visits. It’s sad to say but I really don’t know my brother very well…so I look forward to our next visit together and I believe that every small detail God has planned out for us, even this time where my brother and me can get to know each other better.

Mom had another visitor; Josh from church stopped by to say hi. I thought that was sweet for him to come by and pay mom a visit. He invited her to church this Sunday!!! I hope mom is feeling up to it.

Take time to meditate on these words:
Isaiah 40:29-31 He gives power to those who are tired and worn out; he offers strength to the weak. Even youth will become exhausted, and young men will give up. But those who wait on the Lord will find new strength. They will fly high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not grow faint.


Here is just two of my favorite songs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KbUvYt1q0g
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sR8rlTIU8_Y

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I'm sorry I didn't get a chance to blog yesterday, Tuesdays are one of my very busy days. I am the worship leader at church and on Tuesdays and Thursdays I'm usually there from 6-10 p.m. I anticipate worship. It's my most intimate time with God along with prayer. I like the time I spend with God alone but I really look forward to that time with other believes. It's important for us to come together in unity, as the body.

Two weeks ago my father helped Pam & Connie move the rest of my mothers belongings over from Neenah and yesterday mom had a burst of energy as she went through some of her bags. It was thoughtful of my dad to help my mom, talk about forgiveness...

Today mom wanted me to take her to the Laundromat to wash her blankets. The thought that came to mind was servant hood. I am called to serve just like Christ. He came as a man to serve and save the lost. I want to be more like Jesus. I feel blessed that God has given me this opportunity to love and care for my mother during this time. I know He has something to show me and I pray that I will have a teachable spirit.

Our time at the Laundromat was precious. We shared a bottle of green tea together and as we waited, I asked mom if I could have her hand, and for a moment her hand was in mine. When I was a child my mom held my hand, now I will hold hers.

I am reading this book "May I Walk You Home ?" By Rossi. It's an easy read and inspirational. I believe it will help me do what God has called me to do for my mom. I was a little afraid that I would not know what to say or how to help with my mom's illness and I was feeling an urgency for her salvation but once again I realized that God's timing is perfect and He will give me words of wisdom when it's needed. I won't be able to help walk my mom home without the help of a Savior. I am nothing without Him.

Thought of the day:

Galatians 5:13 For you have been called to live in freedom - not freedom to satisfy your sinful nature, but freedom to serve one another in love.

We have a choice, we can serve our sin or we can do the right thing and glorify God by serving others. And not just to do it because we should but serve out of real love and compassion, the kind God would accept.

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Today is my son Ethan's birthday. I can't believe my baby is already 8 years old! I am so blessed to have wonderful children. We went to a pizza buffet, almost like a chucky cheese with the games and tokens. His friends came and they had a lot of fun!

Mom's radiation treatment went very quick today; we were in and out in 20 minutes. The pain is still there but has lessened so she has been using her walker instead of her wheelchair. The fatigue is still very prevalent, her body needs rest. I was glad she ate better today; she was looking forward to my spaghetti! So when we got home from Ethan's party, I made her dinner. She says I'm a good cook, I get that from her!

I just went up there to tuck her in bed but she was watching a movie and didn't want to be disturbed. She shooed me out when I was trying to talk to her during wheel of fortune too! Mom always did like her T.V.

Mom told me today that she wants her cat's ashes to be put in the urn with her, so I wonder who is going to catch him after she passes! Lucky is almost 16 years old and he is feistier then ever! Mom loves Lucky; he has been a companion for her all these years. He has mom's temperament. I can see why they love each other so much.

To end today’s blog I would like to go to:

Proverbs 3:21-26 My child, don’t lose sight of good planning and insight. Hang on to them, for they fill you with life and bring you honor and respect. They keep you safe on your way and keep your feet from stumbling. You can lie down without fear and enjoy pleasant dreams. You need not be afraid of disaster or the destruction that comes upon the wicked, for the Lord is your security. He will keep your foot from being caught in a trap.

God gives us wisdom if we ask for it. I pray that during this time with my mother that I will seek His guidance and gain understanding and knowledge. I want to do what’s best for her. I know most people don’t like talking about death or planning your last days and believe me; God can heal my mother in a heart beat but whatever His will, I want to help prepare her for eternity.

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I always look forward to Sundays when I have the opportunity to worship with the body of Christ. I am so thankful for my church family. I wanted mom to come to church today but she was not feeling good. I hope she is able to come next week. I am going to ask mom if the church can come over and lay hands on her for healing. I believe that God is the Great Healer and Restorer. We do serve a mighty God!

It was pretty much a quiet day...Mom just finished up her dinner, she didn't eat much, she hasn't ate much lately. She has lost a few pounds, hopefully she doesn't lose anymore.

Monday starts radiation again. Mom meets with the Doctor on Friday this week. My hands are folded in prayer....

Tonight's thoughts come from:

James 5:13-16 Are any among you suffering? They should keep on praying about it. And those who have reason to be thankful should continually sing praises to the Lord. Are any among you sick? They should call on the elders of the church and have them pray over them, anointing them with oil in the name of the Lord. And their prayer offered in faith will heal the sick, and the Lord will make them well. And anyone who has committed sins will be forgiven. Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and wonderful results.

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Today we took a road trip back home so mom could visit her friends and patients from her work of 30 years. She didn't seem to mind the car ride, the warm sun was making her sleepy. But I did get a chance to wake her up a bit when I shared my most embarrassing moments growing up. Which I will not share here...

Everyone was so happy to see mom. I can't describe what it was like taking her from person to peron for maybe that last hug, that last goodbye...It brought tears to most of them, including me. Mom teared up too but mostly I could see she was tyring to be strong for her patients who were so worried for her. Mom worked hard all those years and even though some days were very difficult she loved care taking. I could even see in myself why mom was so dedicated, the people there are so sweet. It was a very special day.

So the day is almost over and mom's upstairs resting now.

My thoughts to end today's blog come from:

Psalms 147:3 He heals the brokenhearted, binding up their wounds.
I know our hearts are breaking but God gives us hope and strength and He comforts us in our time of need.

Goodnight

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Tonight we went to the Christmas Parade and saw the beautiful lights and at the end they had fireworks. It was so much fun. While we were gone; mom had some excitement, someone let the snake out…she was walking to the bathroom and saw something outside the closet. She thought it was a fake snake until she saw it moving and the tongue sticking out. She said she almost had a heart attack! I couldn't help but laugh when she told me how she got him back in his cage! I guess she thought Lucky the cat could help her but he just laid there on the bed looking at her and listening to her scream. Mom took a bucket and a green cloth hand bag and got Okeedia back safely in his home. I know she didn't think it was funny but she was so cute telling me all about it, without her bottom teeth! She reminded me of Grandma Mulder.

Thought of the day:

Psalms 126:2 Our mouths are filled with laughter, our tongues with songs of joy.

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I felt it important to journal my thoughts during this time of change. I hope my words will bring encouragement and provoke something in your own heart.

On November 7, 2008 we found out my mother was diagnosed with stage 4 carcinoma cancer. As a family, we decided to have her move in with us so she would be close to the UW cancer center. The move was hard on mom and her cat; Lucky. Everything changed so quickly, new home, new doctors and results we had to come to terms with. But she seems to be settling in now and getting comfortable in her new home.

It’s been a few weeks since mom started her treatments. She is responding very well to radiation. No side effects except she has been very fatigued. She had her pet scan on November 25, 2008. The news was not good. They found the origin of the cancer; it started in the lungs and the cancer spread to her lymph nodes. He gave her 6-9 months.

The Doctor will be consulting with his team to see what will happen next. He wants to aggressively go after it with radiation and maybe chemo. We will find out more next week.

Mom is scared…she doesn’t want to talk about it much. I can’t imagine knowing that I have 6-9 months left to live. To me there would be an urgency to get my heart right with God. I pray for mom’s salvation and hope that God can use me to help walk her home. We prayed together Wednesday night after hearing the news and as I was asking God for forgiveness and to be the leader of my life; I looked at mom and she was shaking her head yes! It was a beautiful confirmation to me that mom is longing to have a relationship with Jesus.

Sometimes I hear her cry at night and my heart breaks…death can be frightening if you have no hope ... I used to be scared of death and a lot of other things too but I found salvation through Jesus. I am not afraid anymore. I know that this life will pass away so my heart and soul have been preparing for my spiritual journey.

In my quiet moments I think about times in my childhood, some hurtful and I thank God for His forgiveness and how He has shown me how to forgive. People make mistakes, we all make them. I forgive mom and I hope she forgives me too. I know she regrets a lot of things. We had a conversation on November 11, 2008. I felt her words and I saw it in her eyes that she wished she could do a few things over. Mom's compassion and love shined that day. It’s not to late to say your sorry and to make the choice to stop hurting those you love today. I love you mom.

Mom’s friends came to visit a few days after she was here and surprised her with a huge gift of money. People from her work pitched in there vacation hours and they also had a hotdog fundraiser. Mom was so shocked! I wish I had a camera! Mom has great friends.

My brother Randy came to visit on November 24, 2008 and Aunt Sharon came to visit the next day. Aunt Sharon brought nuts for mom’s squirrels. But they haven’t been around. Mom keeps looking out the window for them to show back up.

We celebrated Thanksgiving yesterday with family. We had a house full. It was so nice… thanks to my niece Kimberly who God used to bring us all together. We had a great meal and had some pictures taken and it was so special to be with my family.

Today mom slept until 2:00 p.m. We must have worn her out yesterday with all the company. I was tired too but it was wonderful to be with my family for Thanksgiving.

Today’s letter will end with Romans 12:9-10 & 15-16

Don’t just pretend that you love others. Really love them. Hate what is wrong. Stand on the side of good. Love each other with genuine affection, and take delight in honoring each other. When others are happy, be happy with them. If they are sad, share their sorrow. Live in harmony with each other.

14th Wedding Anniversary

It's been a long time!

Bronson, Brinley, Fayth
Dawson & Ethan

Dad, Pam & Me

Ben & Tara

Sister's cracking up!

Thank you to all of you who read my blog and want to read more... I have been getting e-mails and phone calls asking me to update my blog! So...here's my thoughts on worship!

And some updated pictures!

Love ya!

WORSHIP

"But the time is coming and is already here when true worshippers will worship the Father in spirit and in truth. The Father is looking for anyone who will worship him that way. For God is spirit, so those who worship him must worship in spirit and in truth." John 4:23-24

Well what does that mean? I don't claim to have all the right answers but God knows I'm searching and if your searching too then let's find out together.

Worshipping God can come in many different forms but today let's just talk about worship through music.

God is Spirit, he is present everywhere. It doesn't matter the time or the place, what matters is how we worship our creator. What is our attitude when we come before God? Is it genuine? We are called to give him our praise and adoration with everything we have, with all our heart, mind, soul and strength. It is not God's intention for us just to sing the words, it's so much more...God longs to connect with us in such a deep and intimate way. When it says in Scripture worship in Spirit, well God is spirit and if we are filled with the Holy Spirit by accepting Christ into our hearts than we have a connection with God that is on a different level. The Holy Spirit is the one who guides us into the presence of God.

Now what does it mean to worship in truth? It comes from God's word. The bible is God breathed which means it's all truth and God has given us his word to help us in a our spiritual journey with Him. If you believe in his promises and believe in His love for you... then you know truth!

Worship is to surrender. I know that it's not an easy thing to do! It can be very difficult to humble ourselves before the author of life BUT... oh when we do God in return will bless you! I know for me when I am struggling to give myself over to Him it's usually because I am hanging on to some anger or unforgiveness or guilt, and some time's a little bit of pride. I am learning that before I even spend time in worship I need to pray about all the things I just mentioned.

Worship is not something we only do on a Sunday morning, God intended for us to worship Him Sunday through Saturday. If you are finding it hard to worship Him on Sunday, I would boldly suggest that you may want to think about what I just said. I really believe that we are missing out on valuable time with God when we choose to have our busy life come before Him. I also feel that if you are taking that time during the week than Sunday morning will come easier for you.

Now I know that the style of music on a Sunday morning can also be an issue for some, may I take a moment to share my point of view on this issue. I grew up in a church of almost 1000 people. We were somewhat charismatic. We had expressive worship and a really awesome praise team. When I moved to where I live now, our family joined a very tiny Wesleyan Church with mostly a traditional service. I share that with you because God had to teach me... but also use me to teach other's that worship comes from within, not the style of worship but the heart of worship.

A dear friend recently shared with me that she doesn't think that to worship God you have to raise your hands, bow or kneel to the ground to show him your love. I absolutely agree with that to a certain extent. I believe that you can "quietly" love the Lord but I also believe there should be a time in which you show an ACT of worship as the bible describes over and over again. I found a lot of Scripture on this but look up Philippians 2:10; Romans 14:11 and Isaiah 45:23. I think some people freak out and think we are going to get all crazy, no it's not about getting all weird, it's about stepping forward, sometimes out of our comfort zone to say yes Jesus I love you! and I don't care what people think! It's all about you! It's all about you! What is humbling ourselves anyway? Isn't it putting ourselves out there to be vulnerable? And why not give that "weakness" over to God.

There are a few things I want to express to you:

1. It's not about us. When we give to Him what he deserves we get something back in return.

2. Worship God everyday so when Sunday rolls around you are able to focus on Him instead of the style of music.

3. It's OK to humble yourself before your Maker. Don't look to the left or the right and worry about what other people are thinking. Look up! He's the only One we need approval from.

4. There will come a time when every knee shall bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord. Don't waste your time on earth missing out on the full opportunity to Worship Jesus NOW.

May God continue to richly Bless each and everyone of you!

I look forward to your comments, thoughts and ideas.

God Bless!

I Like To Ride My Bike With God

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This is Josh doing the happy dance and singing our favorite song!

100 Mile Bike Ride

Day one getting ready for the first 38 miles!


Day one entering our first out of three tunnels
Peace Out

First night of worship Second day ~ Need Break!


Coming out of the third tunnel We just finished 100 miles!!!! Actually it was 106!

That’s what 10 amazing people and I just completed.

I need to first give God all the praises and glory. He gave us beautiful weather. The forecast was not looking so dry for us but God came through in a big way and gave us great weather conditions.

Day one…. 38 miles.
Day two… 36 miles.
Day three …29 miles.
(Plus a few extra miles for food!)

You may be thinking that’s crazy. I was too! But what I got out of this event is so much bigger than I could have imagined. I witnessed a TEAM of people encouraging and supporting one another; through the pain and the sweat I heard laughter and singing. Although it was physically and mentally challenging the spiritual part of me felt God’s presents everywhere, our surroundings were filled with his beauty.

I knew I was coming to our check points when I saw Josh (speedy gonzales) off his bike doing the happy dance! Josh brought excitement to our team.

Sarah (getter done) is fast. She was right with Josh except on the second day when she decided to ride with me for a while to be my support. I knew she wanted to just getter done but she stayed with me. Sarah taught me that sometimes doing the right thing isn’t always what you want but what you can do for others.

Ondreea (kicks) showed me patience. She had two flat tires. She may have been the last one to come in but she persevered. You know I never heard her complain.

Then we have Sam (stick shift) who showed me that if something’s broke just fix it! He rode over 100 miles with his gears broke. Do you know how many times you have to change gears? Sam found a stick to help keep his gears in place.

Michelle (the rock) brought laughter. Put her together with Stephanie (machine) and you got yourself a comedy show. “Where’s the seat”? “Under his butt I imagine”! I guess you had to be there!

All the leaders received nick names too! Doug (fearless leader) Ann (mom) Lisa (gumby) Aaron (pokey) me (hilltoper) A very special thank you to Doug and Ann who planned and organized this amazing adventure! Thank you for everything you did for us!

I’m ready for next year!