Yesterday I needed to go through some important paperwork with mom. It was for her accelerated life insurance benefit. That was tough…mom was crying. We didn’t even finish it because it was just too difficult to go through it.
Just before falling asleep early this morning I sensed fear and deep sadness. I pleaded with God to please heal my mother. There’s not enough time…I need more time with my mother. I need more time.
I didn’t always have a close relationship with my mother; only in the last 14 years has our bond grown stronger and that’s only because God has shown me how to humble myself where I’ve been wrong and extend grace and forgiveness even if none is given back. I will cherish ever moment we have left together.
Her vitals were not good today. Her blood pressure was extremely low and she has lost 10-11 pounds. They wanted to give her an IV but she refused. If she comes in tomorrow and her vitals are still not good they will be keeping her for fluids. She meets with the oncologist and the nutritionist tomorrow. Pam is trying to get off of work so she can join us for her appt. with the doctor.
2 Corinthians 12:9 Each time he said, “My gracious favor is all you need. My power works best in your weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weakness, so that the power of Christ may work through me.
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Tara, I talked to Mary tonight after Carol called for your phone number. She said she lost her appetite and that people don't know how people feel that have cancer they shouldn't push things on them. I imagine it is the radiation that is causing her to loose her appetite, as Johns sister died at age 16 of lukemia and he said she lost her appetite also. You know Tara if it is Gods will he will heal Mary you have had time with her and you know she loves Jesus he might want her to come home now. We don't want to see her suffer so pray for Gods will not our selfish will. My human side does not want to let Mary go,but my spiritual side is for Gods will to be done. I don't want her to suffer like Annie did. Call me tomorrow if things are worse. I will keep you in pray as well as Mary all day tomorrow. Love you much! Aunt Sharon
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