I will rejoice in the Lord my God, for His LOVE endures forever and He is faithful! I will praise you Lord for Your healing touch on my mother’s life. I will praise You Lord for your promises, I will praise You Lord for Your Mighty Hand and Your outstretched arm, I will praise You Lord because You are the One and Only True God and I want to serve you all the days of my life. I will praise you God because You are the Miracle Worker in so many ways, I will lift my hands to the heaven because of the joy You bring into my life, I will bow before You because You are worthy of my love and adoration, I will lay prostrate on Your Holy ground because of Your compassion and Your mercy and Your Grace. My God is a great and awesome God and I stand in awe of YOU, LORD!
Mom’s cancer decreased by 80-90%
Praise The Lord Oh My Soul!!!!!
To put it into perspective, mom’s cancer in her right lung was the size of a walnut; it’s now smaller then a pea. And Dr. K said that part may even be just scar tissue.
There is NO cancer found in her lymph nodes! All gone, not a trace to be found!
God does answer prayer…in our obedience to Him. I stand to testify that God hears our prayers and can perform such miracles. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.
As I think about my relationship with Jesus, how He has worked in my life; transformed me from the inside out. I could not imagine going through this life without Him. He gives me my strength and my hope. Actually I do remember a time without Him, it was miserable, depressing, I was lost. No Hope! Can you imagine having NO HOPE…I can’t even go there. I know I can get through anything because God has revealed Himself to me and His word is truth.
I pray that mom will continue to live her life for her Savoir. I pray that her faith will grow and produce nutritious fruit. I pray that she will grow in wisdom and knowledge, for the Spirit to be strong in her and that she will seek God in every part of her life. I look forward to her continued transformation. I pray that we all understand that what we do here on earth will determine our future. I pray that we take our role as Christians seriously. To take up the cross and follow Jesus no matter what the cost. He never said it would be easy only worth it!
Thank you for your prayers!
Acts 1:8 But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.
Zephaniah 3:17 The LORD your God is with you,
He is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
He will quiet you with his love,
He will rejoice over you with singing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ZUTt8XINPY&feature=channel_page
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Give Him A Chance
Last chemo treatment! Mom received her last chemo treatment yesterday, April 8, 2009. She will have her lab, CT, bone scan and MRI on the 22nd to determine what is happening in her body. This is always a nervous time for us. We are praying for God’s healing touch but also trust that mom’s life is in His hands. Mom seems to be in good spirits and she is looking forward to the warmer months ahead.
Our family just recently went on vacation to visit family in Iowa so Pam came to spend time with mom and apparently they did a lot of shopping!!! And they went to the movies and had a great time together.
I love that we are into the Easter celebration season. This is what our salvation is all about. We have a Father who loves us so much that he sent His only Son for us. Jesus came and lived a perfect life, without Sin but yet He took our sin, our shame and was crucified so we could have eternal life.
A short time ago I was questioned about my faith and why God is worthy of my submission and obedience to Him. It was a great conversation, but it got me thinking… I am a follower of Jesus and as a follower He deserves all of me. As Christians I think we may fall short in the time we give Him, what’s due Him. We can’t just say we are Christians without action. If we are not spending time EVERYDAY in God’s presence we are saying and doing the same thing people who don’t have a relationship with Him. We are showing God that He is not worthy of our time. Way too often we think it’s about ourselves and what rights we have but in truth we are nothing without God. God is worthy of my Praise and Worship and Why? His word, the bible tells us unmistakably that He is Worthy. You can also read it in a book “Worship Is…What?” By Tom Kraeuter.
God is worthy of our worship because:
1. He is God ~ Psalm 95:7
2. He Commands it ~ Psalm 148: 1:3 & John 4:23:24
3. He is Worthy ~ Psalm 18:3
4. For His Faithfulness ~ Psalm 100:5
5. For His Love ~ 2 Chronicles 20:21
6. For His Greatness ~ Psalm 95:3
7. For His Salvation ~ Psalm 27:1
8. For His Mighty Deeds ~ Psalm 145:4-6
9. For His Holiness ~ Psalm 99:3,5
10. For His Creation ~ Rev. 4:11
11. For His Power ~ Rev. 11:17
12. For His Miracles ~ Matthew 9:8
I desire to have a more intimate and deeper relationship with Jesus. There is hope in Him. He gave us life and breath…I don’t claim to know it all and God is still changing me and molding me and I don’t want to stay the same, I hunger and thirst for more of Him in my life. I have had a lot of suffering in my life…I had a mother who was an alcoholic, a father an over the road truck driver, I was abandon by my family so as a teen I spent most of my time in foster homes, shelter homes, halfway houses, group homes, jail, treatment centers for drugs. I was raped countless times, placed a baby up for adoption, lost a baby 4 years ago…my mother has a critical illness…the list can go on…What I hope that you get from my short story is that in all that brokenness and hurt, God healed me and gave me an everlasting future with Him. He spoke truth and life back into me. He can and will work in your life, ask seek knock and the door shall be open to you.
I know some of you are going through things I am not and maybe I will never encounter what you are facing. Maybe you are angry and don’t understand why a God so amazing would ever let anything like that happen to you or maybe you don’t believe in Him at all. There’s a lot of questions to be answered, open His bible…He’s available to you wherever your at. Give Him a chance to help you, what can it hurt?
For some reason I can't get the link to work by just clicking on it, please copy and paste into your address bar. It's a beautiful song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bT-TG79htPg
Our family just recently went on vacation to visit family in Iowa so Pam came to spend time with mom and apparently they did a lot of shopping!!! And they went to the movies and had a great time together.
I love that we are into the Easter celebration season. This is what our salvation is all about. We have a Father who loves us so much that he sent His only Son for us. Jesus came and lived a perfect life, without Sin but yet He took our sin, our shame and was crucified so we could have eternal life.
A short time ago I was questioned about my faith and why God is worthy of my submission and obedience to Him. It was a great conversation, but it got me thinking… I am a follower of Jesus and as a follower He deserves all of me. As Christians I think we may fall short in the time we give Him, what’s due Him. We can’t just say we are Christians without action. If we are not spending time EVERYDAY in God’s presence we are saying and doing the same thing people who don’t have a relationship with Him. We are showing God that He is not worthy of our time. Way too often we think it’s about ourselves and what rights we have but in truth we are nothing without God. God is worthy of my Praise and Worship and Why? His word, the bible tells us unmistakably that He is Worthy. You can also read it in a book “Worship Is…What?” By Tom Kraeuter.
God is worthy of our worship because:
1. He is God ~ Psalm 95:7
2. He Commands it ~ Psalm 148: 1:3 & John 4:23:24
3. He is Worthy ~ Psalm 18:3
4. For His Faithfulness ~ Psalm 100:5
5. For His Love ~ 2 Chronicles 20:21
6. For His Greatness ~ Psalm 95:3
7. For His Salvation ~ Psalm 27:1
8. For His Mighty Deeds ~ Psalm 145:4-6
9. For His Holiness ~ Psalm 99:3,5
10. For His Creation ~ Rev. 4:11
11. For His Power ~ Rev. 11:17
12. For His Miracles ~ Matthew 9:8
I desire to have a more intimate and deeper relationship with Jesus. There is hope in Him. He gave us life and breath…I don’t claim to know it all and God is still changing me and molding me and I don’t want to stay the same, I hunger and thirst for more of Him in my life. I have had a lot of suffering in my life…I had a mother who was an alcoholic, a father an over the road truck driver, I was abandon by my family so as a teen I spent most of my time in foster homes, shelter homes, halfway houses, group homes, jail, treatment centers for drugs. I was raped countless times, placed a baby up for adoption, lost a baby 4 years ago…my mother has a critical illness…the list can go on…What I hope that you get from my short story is that in all that brokenness and hurt, God healed me and gave me an everlasting future with Him. He spoke truth and life back into me. He can and will work in your life, ask seek knock and the door shall be open to you.
I know some of you are going through things I am not and maybe I will never encounter what you are facing. Maybe you are angry and don’t understand why a God so amazing would ever let anything like that happen to you or maybe you don’t believe in Him at all. There’s a lot of questions to be answered, open His bible…He’s available to you wherever your at. Give Him a chance to help you, what can it hurt?
For some reason I can't get the link to work by just clicking on it, please copy and paste into your address bar. It's a beautiful song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bT-TG79htPg
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Spiritual Blessings
Last Wednesday mom received her third chemo treatment. She now has to get a shot after every treatment to help with her white blood count. Chemo has taken a toll on her body, the pasted few days her bones have been aching, almost like she needs to get them oiled. It has been difficult to move. I thought it would help for her to get some fresh air so we brought her to feed the ducks yesterday. She really liked that! We’ve had a lot of company, Mike, Shanna, Randy and Charmaine came to visit on Thursday.
Please keep mom in your prayers…she needs us to be intercessors on her behalf.
Back in July of 2007 our Pastor preached a message on a life that pleases God. I have a desire to live a life that pleases God, really pleases God and I understand now that I need to pray daily for spiritual blessings. I believe my mom wants that too but we need to be in prayer about these things:
•Pray For Spiritual Hunger Psalm 119:103 3 How sweet are your words to my taste, sweeter than honey to my mouth!
•Pray For A Burden Jeremiah 20:9 But if I say, "I will not mention him or speak any more in his name," his word is in my heart like a fire,a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot.
•Pray For Opportunities 1 Corinthians 4:9-10 For it seems to me that God has put us apostles on display at the end of the procession, like men condemned to die in the arena. We have been made a spectacle to the whole universe, to angels as well as to men. We are fools for Christ, but you are so wise in Christ! We are weak, but you are strong! You are honored, we are dishonored!
•Pray For Courage Acts 4:29 Now, Lord, consider their threats and enable your servants to speak your word with great boldness.
•Pray For Vision 2 Kings 6:17 And Elisha prayed, "O LORD, open his eyes so he may see." Then the LORD opened the servant's eyes, and he looked and saw the hills full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha.
Thank you for uniting with me to pray for my mother, may God show His favor on you.
Please keep mom in your prayers…she needs us to be intercessors on her behalf.
Back in July of 2007 our Pastor preached a message on a life that pleases God. I have a desire to live a life that pleases God, really pleases God and I understand now that I need to pray daily for spiritual blessings. I believe my mom wants that too but we need to be in prayer about these things:
•Pray For Spiritual Hunger Psalm 119:103 3 How sweet are your words to my taste, sweeter than honey to my mouth!
•Pray For A Burden Jeremiah 20:9 But if I say, "I will not mention him or speak any more in his name," his word is in my heart like a fire,a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot.
•Pray For Opportunities 1 Corinthians 4:9-10 For it seems to me that God has put us apostles on display at the end of the procession, like men condemned to die in the arena. We have been made a spectacle to the whole universe, to angels as well as to men. We are fools for Christ, but you are so wise in Christ! We are weak, but you are strong! You are honored, we are dishonored!
•Pray For Courage Acts 4:29 Now, Lord, consider their threats and enable your servants to speak your word with great boldness.
•Pray For Vision 2 Kings 6:17 And Elisha prayed, "O LORD, open his eyes so he may see." Then the LORD opened the servant's eyes, and he looked and saw the hills full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha.
Thank you for uniting with me to pray for my mother, may God show His favor on you.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Come Back To Me
The nurse called last week to share with mom that she has a low white blood count, Neutropenia. She needs to be very careful not to be around anyone sick; which is hard to do right now, so many people are sick. Mom has a sinus infection that she is trying to fight as well.
We had a lot of visitors in the last week. Cindy and Kathy; mom’s friends from work came on Friday and presented her with a beautiful gift. Mom received The Above and Beyond Regional Winner along with The Above and Beyond Certificate of Achievement Award and a check. Mom has been so blessed by her place of employment. I have been so amazed with them myself; I just can’t believe all the wonderful things everyone has done for mom. It’s unbelievable! Tracie made a beautiful tribute for her too! Thank you! Thank you!
My sister Pam and her husband Sheldon showed up for a surprise visit on Saturday…Even I was shocked! I usually know everything! Ha Ha
Today…my sister Connie came with her gang…AND my brother Mike will be visiting tomorrow. SO we have been very busy with company!
Last week mom had been struggling, to me she seemed depressed. Through her tears and my tears I found out she hadn’t been in God’s word. It had been over a week since she read the bible and in her words she felt like she was rotting away. The term rotting away means to decay, to decompose…that’s what satan wants but…
God wants us to be alive in Him. There is life in Christ! A freedom…We need to stay active for God, serving the Lord with spiritual fervor, passion and eagerness. We all fall short. I have been in that position too many times and prefer not to go backwards again and when I don’t give God the time he deserves because He is worthy of my time, I feel it, He convicts me of my sin. God has revealed to me that I need to submit, be humble and repent.
Here’s some scripture that will help you come back to Him, He’s waiting…
Romans 3:23-24 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus
Romans 12:12 Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer
Ezekiel 37:23 They will no longer defile themselves with their idols and vile images or with any of their offenses, for I will save them from all their sinful backsliding, and I will cleanse them. They will be my people, and I will be their God.
Matthew 26:41 Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak.
1 Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.
Mom's reading again! Praise God!
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Saving Grace
Mom's New Hair Dew
On February 25th, mom had her second chemo treatment. We weren’t really sure if they were going to give her the chemo due to the “flu” symptoms she was experiencing. But she did get to stay for the 6 hour day at the cancer center.
Mom continued to be ill for the next 5 days…she is feeling better today and energized…she cleaned her room, dusted and vacuumed and even washed her bed sheets and covers. She’s taking a nap now!
On February 26th mom asked me to shave the rest of her hair off…It had been falling out fast and hurting in the process. It was very surreal. It was my hands, my shaver that was taking the rest of my mom’s dignity. It was also my hands that were serving my mom. Mom was more beautiful to me in that moment then she had ever been in my whole life…
The Lord gives and takes away. Hair taken away…Holy Spirit given…The road marked with suffering, though there’s pain in the offering…Blessed Be Thy Name…
I hold on to the truth, the truth that Christ Jesus will be the source of my mom’s comfort and strength and He's is mine too.
Worship is a large part of my intimacy with my Jesus and through that He touches me. Last week, Sunday and today has been so emotional. As I sing and praise Him; I am saturated in tears. God will take my mother home someday but I will continue to pour my love on Him and I will open my arms in praise because of His tender mercies and I will lift my eyes to Him in thanksgiving because He never breaks a promise and His words says:
John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
It’s not too late to have salvation, God meets us right where were at, it doesn’t matter what we’ve done. He would of never came to die for us if it was to late and believe me I deserve to rot in hell but God extended His grace on me and He can for you too. Say this prayer with me:
Heavenly Father, I have lived my life for myself. I wanted control, I wanted to do things my way and in my time and without help but Father I realize I don’t have control, I don’t want things my way and I want your help. Please forgive me for I have sinned against You and I have wronged You so many times. I’m sorry. I understand that You sent your only Son Jesus for me and He died for me and He rose again for me. Thank you for your forgiveness. Please help me to change my life for you, help me to be obedient, help me in the way I think and how I act. I need You. I want You to be the leader of my life. In Jesus Name, Amen
If you said that prayer, WELCOME to the family. You are now a child of God. A whole new life awaits you, to learn, to grow, to be transformed for our Savior. Please contact me or someone who has a strong relationship with the Lord so they can help disciple you on your new journey.
Praise The Lord!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Dca0P7w9ZQ
Give Me Jesus
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=opMkgyfps4c&feature=channel_page
Pour My Love
Monday, February 23, 2009
Loss of Hair
This morning mom came down stairs in a panic…her hair was coming out by the handfuls. She had to take a few moments to let the tears fall. Even as I witnessed mom upset; her compassion shinned through as she talked about Aunt Anne and her cancer, wishing she could have done more for her.
Mom cheered up when Mike, Jackie, Lexi and Trent came to visit. Mike shared a few brain teasers with us and made everyone laugh. He tripped all of us a time or two! Lexi and Trent are so cute! Jackie you’re a good mommy!
Tonight mom got a call from her friend Tracy, she has a surprised for mom, I can’t wait to share it you! I also had an opportunity to talk to her. Both of her parents have passed away. It always amazes me how God works; he puts people in our path that have experienced the same thing or close to it. Look for ways to share. It’s so important to be encouraged by others and prayer is powerful, we all need prayer.
Mom has her second chemo treatment tomorrow…
Matthew 18:20 Where two or more are gathered together because they are mine, I am there among them.
Mom cheered up when Mike, Jackie, Lexi and Trent came to visit. Mike shared a few brain teasers with us and made everyone laugh. He tripped all of us a time or two! Lexi and Trent are so cute! Jackie you’re a good mommy!
Tonight mom got a call from her friend Tracy, she has a surprised for mom, I can’t wait to share it you! I also had an opportunity to talk to her. Both of her parents have passed away. It always amazes me how God works; he puts people in our path that have experienced the same thing or close to it. Look for ways to share. It’s so important to be encouraged by others and prayer is powerful, we all need prayer.
Mom has her second chemo treatment tomorrow…
Matthew 18:20 Where two or more are gathered together because they are mine, I am there among them.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Humility
What a day…
A little crazy, a little backwards…anyway that’s what I was doing when I got stuck in the snow going reverse in a friend’s long and winding driveway at night.
So it’s dark and it just freshly snowed and it was the first time I was even in their driveway but I thought I could do it. Well…to my humility I needed to be rescued.
I got to thinking on the way home; I am a good driver. As a matter of fact I can drive in reverse pretty good! Not to boast, really! I was mortified.
So I’m talking to God on the way home...and He showed me what I needed. Sometimes we’ve done something so many times that we think we can do it well and without help but without God we are nothing. The fact that it was at night reminds me that in the darkness we can stumble and fall. Jesus is the light. I think God intended for me to get stuck to show me that I need to take the more humble road. When we are humble; we don’t have selfish motives; there’s no room for conceit or pride. Humility gives us an opportunity to grow.
John 8:12 "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life
Romans 1-2 Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual[a] act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
So you think that would be it today but no…we had a gas leak in one of our furnaces and about 2 hours later the gas guy knocked at our door to tell us our meter outside had a break. So we had the windows open and the heat shut off while it was being fixed. Thank you Jesus for keeping us safe.
The best part of our day was traveling to Tracy’s baby shower that was put on by Aunt Sharon and Nicole. It was really nice, they did a wonderful job!
Mom is doing good…her hair has started to fall out due to chemo. Her scalp is tender and hurts to the touch. She picked out a beautiful wig. It looks really nice. I know that losing her hair has been difficult. I wanted to shave my head in support but mom was not in agreement. Wouldn’t that be fun though if we all shaved our heads for her?
So the day is finally over…Goodnight!
A little crazy, a little backwards…anyway that’s what I was doing when I got stuck in the snow going reverse in a friend’s long and winding driveway at night.
So it’s dark and it just freshly snowed and it was the first time I was even in their driveway but I thought I could do it. Well…to my humility I needed to be rescued.
I got to thinking on the way home; I am a good driver. As a matter of fact I can drive in reverse pretty good! Not to boast, really! I was mortified.
So I’m talking to God on the way home...and He showed me what I needed. Sometimes we’ve done something so many times that we think we can do it well and without help but without God we are nothing. The fact that it was at night reminds me that in the darkness we can stumble and fall. Jesus is the light. I think God intended for me to get stuck to show me that I need to take the more humble road. When we are humble; we don’t have selfish motives; there’s no room for conceit or pride. Humility gives us an opportunity to grow.
John 8:12 "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life
Romans 1-2 Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual[a] act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
So you think that would be it today but no…we had a gas leak in one of our furnaces and about 2 hours later the gas guy knocked at our door to tell us our meter outside had a break. So we had the windows open and the heat shut off while it was being fixed. Thank you Jesus for keeping us safe.
The best part of our day was traveling to Tracy’s baby shower that was put on by Aunt Sharon and Nicole. It was really nice, they did a wonderful job!
Mom is doing good…her hair has started to fall out due to chemo. Her scalp is tender and hurts to the touch. She picked out a beautiful wig. It looks really nice. I know that losing her hair has been difficult. I wanted to shave my head in support but mom was not in agreement. Wouldn’t that be fun though if we all shaved our heads for her?
So the day is finally over…Goodnight!
Pictures at the baby shower
Pictures taken February 11, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Endurance
Endurance
It’s easy to give up and sometimes temptation gets the best of us but hopefully we hold on to what is true and we never get tired of doing good and what is right in God’s sight.
As I watch my mother go through cancer and chemo where her body is failing her, I pray for her to press on in her faith. I see her body worn out and weary with exhaustion and I know that when your body is weak it’s more difficult to be spiritually strong. So I pray for endurance. I pray for my mother and for our family to stand on God’s word, to seek His promises and speak out His truth. I pray that our thoughts will be of one sound and one mind. I understand that we will have challenging days, already we have faced so many. But let us continue to give praise to our Father! My request as you pray for mom is that you pray for me too; first as a daughter of the King and second as a daughter of a woman whom in these last few months I’ve come to admire; her inner strength and beauty has been a gift to me.
When I wake in the morning and when I go to sleep I have been asking God “What can I do to change for you Lord?” If I am diligent in my obedience to God; that will help me as a Christian, wife, mother, daughter, friend, a member of a great church, a leader, a neighbor and so on…If I endure... then I will be encouraged to carry on, sometimes through suffering but there is a blessing when our faith remains strong. So what ever you are going through, what ever you are facing, whatever seems to unbearable, remember that God gives you the strength to endure. Suffering allows God to work in us.
It’s been 4 days since mom’s first chemo treatment. She’s having some minor side effects but for the most part she is doing well. Will you stand firm with me for healing over my mom and for endurance in her spiritual walk with Jesus. Thank you and bless you!
Thank you for your comments, e-mails and letters. Something so simple means so much to mom.
Please listen to this song:
It’s easy to give up and sometimes temptation gets the best of us but hopefully we hold on to what is true and we never get tired of doing good and what is right in God’s sight.
As I watch my mother go through cancer and chemo where her body is failing her, I pray for her to press on in her faith. I see her body worn out and weary with exhaustion and I know that when your body is weak it’s more difficult to be spiritually strong. So I pray for endurance. I pray for my mother and for our family to stand on God’s word, to seek His promises and speak out His truth. I pray that our thoughts will be of one sound and one mind. I understand that we will have challenging days, already we have faced so many. But let us continue to give praise to our Father! My request as you pray for mom is that you pray for me too; first as a daughter of the King and second as a daughter of a woman whom in these last few months I’ve come to admire; her inner strength and beauty has been a gift to me.
When I wake in the morning and when I go to sleep I have been asking God “What can I do to change for you Lord?” If I am diligent in my obedience to God; that will help me as a Christian, wife, mother, daughter, friend, a member of a great church, a leader, a neighbor and so on…If I endure... then I will be encouraged to carry on, sometimes through suffering but there is a blessing when our faith remains strong. So what ever you are going through, what ever you are facing, whatever seems to unbearable, remember that God gives you the strength to endure. Suffering allows God to work in us.
It’s been 4 days since mom’s first chemo treatment. She’s having some minor side effects but for the most part she is doing well. Will you stand firm with me for healing over my mom and for endurance in her spiritual walk with Jesus. Thank you and bless you!
Thank you for your comments, e-mails and letters. Something so simple means so much to mom.
Please listen to this song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qaHmiFaX_pk&feature=channel_page
Galatians 6:9 Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
1 Peter 4:13 But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.
Hebrews 3:14 We have come to share in Christ if we hold firmly till the end the confidence we had at first
James 1:12 Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.
Galatians 6:9 Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
1 Peter 4:13 But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.
Hebrews 3:14 We have come to share in Christ if we hold firmly till the end the confidence we had at first
James 1:12 Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
First Day of Chemo
Today was mom’s first day of chemo…
I pray for a healing touch from our heavenly Father, just one touch of His glory to rain down upon His child. I thank God for His Sovereignty. God has total control over His creation. He knows all things…He knows my mothers weaknesses and will make her stronger in her obedience to Him. I pray that as her body is fragile her spirit is strong in the name of Jesus. I don’t questions God’s plan in my mom’s illness, what I want to know is how can I glorify God through this experience. I see His goodness and I can’t help but feel blessed, like today when I was praying for mom at the cancer center and a heard a sweet soft voice like and angel say “Yes Jesus” and I felt the power of Jesus and the room was filled with His Spirit. When we finished praying I looked over to see the nurse on her knees holding mom’s hand. It was such a tender moment and I thank God for giving us the gift of new friendships.
Mom and I shared our devotional and bible time as she was receiving her treatment, may the truth of His words and the spirit in which I spoke bring freedom to those who were listening, whether that have been the people to the left or right or those working in the facility. May the seeds be planted!
Mom is feeling pretty good, she is a little light headed and dizzy but she doesn’t feel nauseous. Praise the Lord!
Mom tried on some wigs as she was waiting, when I walk in I had to do a double take and then I realized it was mom. My heart breaks for her because I know that this will probably be the most difficult for her. I will be setting up an appointment for her to get a fitted wig, the nurse told us in about 2 weeks her hair will start falling out and it will come out in large amounts.
Everyone at the cancer center is so nice…they made mom feel better.
Mom has God’s mighty power to help her through this, miracles happen to those who believe!
2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
I pray for a healing touch from our heavenly Father, just one touch of His glory to rain down upon His child. I thank God for His Sovereignty. God has total control over His creation. He knows all things…He knows my mothers weaknesses and will make her stronger in her obedience to Him. I pray that as her body is fragile her spirit is strong in the name of Jesus. I don’t questions God’s plan in my mom’s illness, what I want to know is how can I glorify God through this experience. I see His goodness and I can’t help but feel blessed, like today when I was praying for mom at the cancer center and a heard a sweet soft voice like and angel say “Yes Jesus” and I felt the power of Jesus and the room was filled with His Spirit. When we finished praying I looked over to see the nurse on her knees holding mom’s hand. It was such a tender moment and I thank God for giving us the gift of new friendships.
Mom and I shared our devotional and bible time as she was receiving her treatment, may the truth of His words and the spirit in which I spoke bring freedom to those who were listening, whether that have been the people to the left or right or those working in the facility. May the seeds be planted!
Mom is feeling pretty good, she is a little light headed and dizzy but she doesn’t feel nauseous. Praise the Lord!
Mom tried on some wigs as she was waiting, when I walk in I had to do a double take and then I realized it was mom. My heart breaks for her because I know that this will probably be the most difficult for her. I will be setting up an appointment for her to get a fitted wig, the nurse told us in about 2 weeks her hair will start falling out and it will come out in large amounts.
Everyone at the cancer center is so nice…they made mom feel better.
Mom has God’s mighty power to help her through this, miracles happen to those who believe!
2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
Isaiah 40:29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.
Ephesians 6:10-12 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Surgery
Tomorrow morning mom will have her surgery. She will have a port placed under her skin in order to put the chemo in and other medicines and even get her blood drawn.
If you would like to check out what procedure, go to: http://www.portadvantage.com/
The cancer center wanted to start her on chemo this Friday, but mom is leaving to go back home to get her taxes done and lucky for Lucky; he is going to get a hair cut! So they are calling us tomorrow to set up her first chemo therapy treatment.
I know that this time will be a testimony of faith and trust in Jesus. She will have to rely on Him for strength, courage, rest and healing. I pray that this will be a time where mom will be able to draw even closer to Him and that her walk will become more intimate. (please listen to link)
If you would like to check out what procedure, go to: http://www.portadvantage.com/
The cancer center wanted to start her on chemo this Friday, but mom is leaving to go back home to get her taxes done and lucky for Lucky; he is going to get a hair cut! So they are calling us tomorrow to set up her first chemo therapy treatment.
I know that this time will be a testimony of faith and trust in Jesus. She will have to rely on Him for strength, courage, rest and healing. I pray that this will be a time where mom will be able to draw even closer to Him and that her walk will become more intimate. (please listen to link)
1 Peter 4:13 But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.
James 1:12 Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.
Last Saturday Aunt Sharon brought mom to see Todd, Shirley and Jaden. Here are some pictures fro her visit.
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Thursday, January 29, 2009
Friends
Here are some pictures from mom's Christmas /Retirement party
God blesses us with friendships and relationsips. This is what God promises us when we make healthy fellowship a priortiy.
1 John 1:5-7 This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
The Journey
The journey…
Yesterday mom found out her cancer spread in her right lung, 50% bigger from her last pet scan taken at the end of November. Not the news we were hoping for…Mom thought for sure God had healed her from lung cancer. She prays everyday for healing. I felt sad for her, she had such high hopes. As a Christian I believe in God’s great healing power. I also believe in God’s will not mine. I know this is not great news but I see that God has already healed my mother spiritually. And I praise God for His tender mercy.
Mom had to get a MRI done today, praying that the cancer has not gone to the brain.
She decided to start chemo; first she’ll meet with a surgeon next week to put a port under her skin so she doesn’t have to keep getting poked and prodded. Chemo will be 6 hours every three weeks for 3-4 months. This will not cure her only shrink or delay the cancer. The diagnosis remains the same. The radiation did work in her pelvic area and shrunk that significantly. That’s why she has been feeling so good.
Please continue in your prayers, God is listening.
Psalm 73:24-26 You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Yesterday mom found out her cancer spread in her right lung, 50% bigger from her last pet scan taken at the end of November. Not the news we were hoping for…Mom thought for sure God had healed her from lung cancer. She prays everyday for healing. I felt sad for her, she had such high hopes. As a Christian I believe in God’s great healing power. I also believe in God’s will not mine. I know this is not great news but I see that God has already healed my mother spiritually. And I praise God for His tender mercy.
Mom had to get a MRI done today, praying that the cancer has not gone to the brain.
She decided to start chemo; first she’ll meet with a surgeon next week to put a port under her skin so she doesn’t have to keep getting poked and prodded. Chemo will be 6 hours every three weeks for 3-4 months. This will not cure her only shrink or delay the cancer. The diagnosis remains the same. The radiation did work in her pelvic area and shrunk that significantly. That’s why she has been feeling so good.
Please continue in your prayers, God is listening.
Psalm 73:24-26 You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Mom's Christmas/Surprise Retirement Party
This past weekend I took mom back home for her work Christmas / SURPRISE retirement party. She invited her three daughters to come along with her and stay at a hotel that night. We arrived at the party around 6 pm. They had great food to eat; which was very tasty and off my counting points plan! They also had gifts for all the guests and employees. I thought that was very thoughtful! Mom didn't know it but they also had a surprise retirement for her. She spent 30 hard years and dedication at a place she really did love. I am so proud of my mother. She put a lot of love sweat and tears into her job and the residents miss her so much. Mom received some beautiful gifts but it didn't end there; she also received The Above and Beyond Award, out of 11 facilities she was chosen.
When mom's name was called up there, I said mom they called your name, she said no they didn't I said yes go up there, she said no, I said go mom...She was so nervous and didn't know what to say while she was up there so now I will share with you what she told me.
"I never thought so many people cared for me, I never thought I meant that much, they have been so wonderful to me and people gave me money and their vacation hours and had fundraisers for me, I can't believe it, how am I ever going to thank everyone? I miss the people and the residents and I miss being active, I wish I could go back to work."
Thanks again to everyone, you have no idea how you have touch my mom and her family by your love and generosity. Thank you and May God richly bless each and every one of you!
So we left the party to go back to the hotel. We sat in the hot tub for just a little while and ate again at 11 o’clock at night, we ordered pizza. I don’t think we slept much; I was really tired on Sunday. We never did play our games we brought. In the morning mom tried sharing God’s word with Connie, I hope a seed was planted.
Pam mom and I went to Pam’s church and heard an awesome message from the pastor. How we need to be God’s eyes, ears, hands, feet; that are job here is not done, too many people are dying without salvation. We need to have urgency about the lost. The words that spoke to me were being gentle yet consistent. I think without realizing it I may come across pushing but I feel it’s because God has revealed certain truths to me by wanting to be obedient and keeping in His word. So my next spiritual goal is to work on being gentle yet consistent. I’ve learned that it’s ok to swallow a piece of humble pie, that’s how we grow.
Matthew 18:3-5 And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. "And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me.
The video was taken at the end of the night. Once one person heard we were leaving and a bunch of people came rushing and formed a goodbye line. I am sorry the video is dark in the beginning and at the end there is one swear word that I didn’t know how to edit. I played it from my camera. Not very good quality but I think you’ll get the “picture”
When mom's name was called up there, I said mom they called your name, she said no they didn't I said yes go up there, she said no, I said go mom...She was so nervous and didn't know what to say while she was up there so now I will share with you what she told me.
"I never thought so many people cared for me, I never thought I meant that much, they have been so wonderful to me and people gave me money and their vacation hours and had fundraisers for me, I can't believe it, how am I ever going to thank everyone? I miss the people and the residents and I miss being active, I wish I could go back to work."
Thanks again to everyone, you have no idea how you have touch my mom and her family by your love and generosity. Thank you and May God richly bless each and every one of you!
So we left the party to go back to the hotel. We sat in the hot tub for just a little while and ate again at 11 o’clock at night, we ordered pizza. I don’t think we slept much; I was really tired on Sunday. We never did play our games we brought. In the morning mom tried sharing God’s word with Connie, I hope a seed was planted.
Pam mom and I went to Pam’s church and heard an awesome message from the pastor. How we need to be God’s eyes, ears, hands, feet; that are job here is not done, too many people are dying without salvation. We need to have urgency about the lost. The words that spoke to me were being gentle yet consistent. I think without realizing it I may come across pushing but I feel it’s because God has revealed certain truths to me by wanting to be obedient and keeping in His word. So my next spiritual goal is to work on being gentle yet consistent. I’ve learned that it’s ok to swallow a piece of humble pie, that’s how we grow.
Matthew 18:3-5 And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. "And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me.
The video was taken at the end of the night. Once one person heard we were leaving and a bunch of people came rushing and formed a goodbye line. I am sorry the video is dark in the beginning and at the end there is one swear word that I didn’t know how to edit. I played it from my camera. Not very good quality but I think you’ll get the “picture”
Monday, January 19, 2009
Letters From The Heart 33
Not really sure how to blog tonight...
Mom and I had a conversation today...
I don't want to get into the details of the discussion and the specifics are not important...
But I am asking for prayer over her without ceasing, please...
If you go to Him in spirit, He will hear your call and know your heart.
Thank you!
Be Blessed.
2 Samuel 12:16 David pleaded with God for the child. He fasted and went into his house and spent the nights lying on the ground.
Philippians 1:10 so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ.
Mom and I had a conversation today...
I don't want to get into the details of the discussion and the specifics are not important...
But I am asking for prayer over her without ceasing, please...
If you go to Him in spirit, He will hear your call and know your heart.
Thank you!
Be Blessed.
2 Samuel 12:16 David pleaded with God for the child. He fasted and went into his house and spent the nights lying on the ground.
Philippians 1:10 so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Letters From The Heart 32
What a beautiful day...
Mom came to church and she just sparkled. You could just see the Holy Spirit radiate off of her. So many people mentioned how mom had a beautiful glow about her. I praise God how He is changing my mom.
During worship we sang the song “Our God Saves” and I had the Holy Ghost all over me, I couldn’t even sing it. I looked at mom and I wanted to drop down in Awe of God, how He saved my mother. Then we sang Grace Like Rain and again mom and I made eye contact and we both felt God’s mercy and forgiveness rain down on us. What an awesome day!
After mom brought us out to eat, the girls; mom, Fayth and I went out shopping and had so much fun being together.
Mom came to church and she just sparkled. You could just see the Holy Spirit radiate off of her. So many people mentioned how mom had a beautiful glow about her. I praise God how He is changing my mom.
During worship we sang the song “Our God Saves” and I had the Holy Ghost all over me, I couldn’t even sing it. I looked at mom and I wanted to drop down in Awe of God, how He saved my mother. Then we sang Grace Like Rain and again mom and I made eye contact and we both felt God’s mercy and forgiveness rain down on us. What an awesome day!
After mom brought us out to eat, the girls; mom, Fayth and I went out shopping and had so much fun being together. Thank you Jesus for this day, we praise you for your faithfulness, gentleness, compassion, for your miracles, we praise you for your mighty deeds, we praise you for your healing power, we lift your name up to honor the Lord of Lords, we praise you for your promises, we praise you for your forgiveness and mercy, we love you!
You Make All Things New!
Revelation 21:4-6 He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." He who was seated on the throne said, "I am making everything new!" Then he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true." He said to me: "It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To him who is thirsty I will give to drink without cost from the spring of the water of life.
You Make All Things New!
Revelation 21:4-6 He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." He who was seated on the throne said, "I am making everything new!" Then he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true." He said to me: "It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To him who is thirsty I will give to drink without cost from the spring of the water of life.
Our God Saves
Grace Like Rain
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Letters From The Heart 31
Another COLD day...
My friend started a new connection group tonight on Revelation so I did brave the bitter weather to participate in the study and I'm glad I did.
Mom didn't sleep well last night and wanted to nap today but couldn't fall asleep. We haven't read yet so I am going to make this blog very brief.
Mom received a letter from one of her grandson's today and my heart was discouraged; because there are so many unsaved people in our family and around the world. He is so lost and I can't express how important it is to share the good news. People need to hear that there is hope. Please be praying for me as I ask God to use me to intervene on his behalf. Pray without ceasing…
1 John 5:14-15 This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.
My friend started a new connection group tonight on Revelation so I did brave the bitter weather to participate in the study and I'm glad I did.
Mom didn't sleep well last night and wanted to nap today but couldn't fall asleep. We haven't read yet so I am going to make this blog very brief.
Mom received a letter from one of her grandson's today and my heart was discouraged; because there are so many unsaved people in our family and around the world. He is so lost and I can't express how important it is to share the good news. People need to hear that there is hope. Please be praying for me as I ask God to use me to intervene on his behalf. Pray without ceasing…
1 John 5:14-15 This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Letters From The Heart 30
Burrrrr...no need to venture outside today; it's too cold!
Mom had a quiet day; she never did get out of her pajamas.
I received an e-mail from one of mom’s friends who shared some life experiences with me; it was very heartfelt and meant a lot to me. She also wrote some sweet stuff about mom and how she is so missed and how she never remembers mom missing a day of work in the 13 years that she has know her. I let mom read some of the letter and tears just ran down mom’s cheeks. It gives me a warm feeling to know that so many people I have never met care so much about my mom.
Thanks everyone for your love and kind words, your prayers and your encouragement. It means more then I think you will ever realize.
1 Peter 3:8-9 All of you should be of one mind, full of sympathy toward each other, loving one another with tender hearts and humble minds. Don’t repay evil for evil. Don’t retaliate when people say unkind things about you. Instead, pay them back with a blessing. That is what God wants you to do, and he will bless you for it.
Mom had a quiet day; she never did get out of her pajamas.
I received an e-mail from one of mom’s friends who shared some life experiences with me; it was very heartfelt and meant a lot to me. She also wrote some sweet stuff about mom and how she is so missed and how she never remembers mom missing a day of work in the 13 years that she has know her. I let mom read some of the letter and tears just ran down mom’s cheeks. It gives me a warm feeling to know that so many people I have never met care so much about my mom.
Thanks everyone for your love and kind words, your prayers and your encouragement. It means more then I think you will ever realize.
1 Peter 3:8-9 All of you should be of one mind, full of sympathy toward each other, loving one another with tender hearts and humble minds. Don’t repay evil for evil. Don’t retaliate when people say unkind things about you. Instead, pay them back with a blessing. That is what God wants you to do, and he will bless you for it.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Letters From The Heart 29
I know I’ve written about this already but I can’t help but share it again, mom is just reading away, not only is she reading with me, she is reading on her own and has read Genesis and now she’s in Leviticus. She's also reading The 40 Days of Purpose and a few other Christian based books on the side. She's on FIRE! She told me that she can't get enough of it...and she’s understanding it and asking questions; that's the Holy Spirit working in her. Totally cool! I love to see a baby Christian seeking God with all they have, that's the way we should always be no matter where we are in our walk with God.
Revelation 3:15-16I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.
Whoa…God would rather have us hot or cold, not lukewarm. We need to choose what it’s going to be…are we going to follow Him with our whole heart or nothing???
Galatians 6:9 Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
If you want to have that same intensity that my mother has; ask God to give you that desire, that appetite that passion that craving that hunger that thirst and He will because His word says it and the BIBLE is God breathed, its complete truth!!!
Matthew 7:7 Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
Revelation 3:15-16I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.
Whoa…God would rather have us hot or cold, not lukewarm. We need to choose what it’s going to be…are we going to follow Him with our whole heart or nothing???
Galatians 6:9 Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
If you want to have that same intensity that my mother has; ask God to give you that desire, that appetite that passion that craving that hunger that thirst and He will because His word says it and the BIBLE is God breathed, its complete truth!!!
Matthew 7:7 Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Letters From The Heart 28
Mom is having problems with her new glasses, she can't see through the bifocals so it is causing her headaches. She has another appointment on Saturday to check her prescription. Her headaches have been in the back of the head and neck where that spot is, hope it's nothing to be concerned about.
Mom woke up this morning with a sore throat and she said she felt a lump as she swallowed. Don't know what that is...
The doctor put her on some sleeping medicine since she has insomnia and we think they have been giving her nightmares. She's had some bad dreams so I hope that gets better for her or maybe God is speaking to her through these dreams.
She still is doing good and in good spirits. She is walking so well and feels no pain there just in her lower back once in a while.
We are in the 3rd chapter of Acts now.
As for my blog yesterday...I walked for an hour and ate all good stuff today. I want to take care of my body, it's hard; it's a commitment. If I fail I know I can come to Him and I know His mercies begin a fresh each day. Please be praying for me and my two girlfriends; Michelle and Stephanie, we are doing this together. I pray that whatever it is that you need to change; maybe it's the things you watch or the places you hang out, or the music you listen to, or the clothes you wear. We can do it together, there is strength in numbers!
1 Thessalonians 3:13 May he strengthen your hearts so that you will be blameless and holy in the presence of our God and Father when our Lord Jesus comes with all his holy ones.
Mom woke up this morning with a sore throat and she said she felt a lump as she swallowed. Don't know what that is...
The doctor put her on some sleeping medicine since she has insomnia and we think they have been giving her nightmares. She's had some bad dreams so I hope that gets better for her or maybe God is speaking to her through these dreams.
She still is doing good and in good spirits. She is walking so well and feels no pain there just in her lower back once in a while.
We are in the 3rd chapter of Acts now.
As for my blog yesterday...I walked for an hour and ate all good stuff today. I want to take care of my body, it's hard; it's a commitment. If I fail I know I can come to Him and I know His mercies begin a fresh each day. Please be praying for me and my two girlfriends; Michelle and Stephanie, we are doing this together. I pray that whatever it is that you need to change; maybe it's the things you watch or the places you hang out, or the music you listen to, or the clothes you wear. We can do it together, there is strength in numbers!
1 Thessalonians 3:13 May he strengthen your hearts so that you will be blameless and holy in the presence of our God and Father when our Lord Jesus comes with all his holy ones.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Letters From The Heart 27
I had a long week with home schooling and I was not feeling well and I had a doctors appointment that I was a little anxious about, the week was tiresome so that may have played a factor as to why I was feeling the way I felt this week; like I was spiritually resting. Come today, Sunday I didn’t “feel” like going to church. I ask God “What is it that you want me to change.” He spoke so loud and clear…I work in you, you don’t have to and you can’t do it on your own! Oh…oh. Talk about humility. I thought I figured that one out already. The problem I was facing is not important, what God wanted me to change was. I was being a hindrance to my own spiritual wellbeing…ouch that hurts. So here I am reevaluating myself; asking God what He wants me to learn, again! He’s always teaching me something, the question is am I willing to be obedient. He is my teacher, I am the student.
I have this beautiful moment in time to watch my mother grow in the Spirit. We are reading together, she’s reading the bible on her own, her attitude is softer, and she’s sweeter, kinder and so delightful to be around. I am witnessing how God is moving through her everyday. It’s almost breath taking. We live by faith not by sight but I see; I see His Majesty. I pray that God will heal her and that she can be a witness for Him. Mom did not use her body as the Holy temple that it is. She abused it for many years; drinking, smoking, etc… and she quit, she is gaining strength each new day and what a testimony it is already but God’s not done with her, I just know it.
I just want to talk about our bodies being a Holy temple and this really goes out to all my loved one’s still drinking and/or smoking. This is difficult because you never want to hurt someone’s feelings but I am not speaking on my own accord, I am speaking from God.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20 Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.
He has created us to be in His image, he made us, and we are something unique and special. God calls us to take care of His extraordinary creation, that YOU…
When we become God’s chosen people, He wants us to be transformed by the way we think so if you think you can’t quit, you are thinking with the worlds standards…
Philippians 4:13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Pray with me right now.
Heavenly Father, I thank you Father for the beauty of your creation. Thank you for giving me life and breath. Lord I am sorry that I have abused and neglected my body. I know that my body is a Holy Temple, it’s not mine but yours and I want to treat it will love and honor because I know it glorifies you. Lord I can’t do this on my own, I need your strength. You are a faithful God who will help me in my time of need and when the temptation get’s too overwhelming, I know I can look to you and I can stand firm on your promises. Please help me to be obedient to you. I ask these things in Jesus Name, Amen!
I pray that this is a new time, a new day, a new hour, a new person. That you would allow God to work in you! Do you believe that God can change this for you? Do you have hope in Jesus? Ask God to give you the hunger for change; the thirst for obedience. Stop making excuses, and as I write God has convicted me of my own sin, overeating. We can come together in unity and fight the good fight against Satan. Do you know how happy it makes Satan to see that you and I haven’t fully committed ourselves to God? Do you want to commit with me right now and spit Satan back into the pit where he belongs? Then make a comment on my blog, e-mail me, or call me, whatever you have to do to connect with me and we will come together with God as our strength and we will win because Jesus has already won the victory and when God is on our side who can be against us!
Amen
Amen
I have this beautiful moment in time to watch my mother grow in the Spirit. We are reading together, she’s reading the bible on her own, her attitude is softer, and she’s sweeter, kinder and so delightful to be around. I am witnessing how God is moving through her everyday. It’s almost breath taking. We live by faith not by sight but I see; I see His Majesty. I pray that God will heal her and that she can be a witness for Him. Mom did not use her body as the Holy temple that it is. She abused it for many years; drinking, smoking, etc… and she quit, she is gaining strength each new day and what a testimony it is already but God’s not done with her, I just know it.
I just want to talk about our bodies being a Holy temple and this really goes out to all my loved one’s still drinking and/or smoking. This is difficult because you never want to hurt someone’s feelings but I am not speaking on my own accord, I am speaking from God.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20 Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.
He has created us to be in His image, he made us, and we are something unique and special. God calls us to take care of His extraordinary creation, that YOU…
When we become God’s chosen people, He wants us to be transformed by the way we think so if you think you can’t quit, you are thinking with the worlds standards…
Philippians 4:13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Pray with me right now.
Heavenly Father, I thank you Father for the beauty of your creation. Thank you for giving me life and breath. Lord I am sorry that I have abused and neglected my body. I know that my body is a Holy Temple, it’s not mine but yours and I want to treat it will love and honor because I know it glorifies you. Lord I can’t do this on my own, I need your strength. You are a faithful God who will help me in my time of need and when the temptation get’s too overwhelming, I know I can look to you and I can stand firm on your promises. Please help me to be obedient to you. I ask these things in Jesus Name, Amen!
I pray that this is a new time, a new day, a new hour, a new person. That you would allow God to work in you! Do you believe that God can change this for you? Do you have hope in Jesus? Ask God to give you the hunger for change; the thirst for obedience. Stop making excuses, and as I write God has convicted me of my own sin, overeating. We can come together in unity and fight the good fight against Satan. Do you know how happy it makes Satan to see that you and I haven’t fully committed ourselves to God? Do you want to commit with me right now and spit Satan back into the pit where he belongs? Then make a comment on my blog, e-mail me, or call me, whatever you have to do to connect with me and we will come together with God as our strength and we will win because Jesus has already won the victory and when God is on our side who can be against us!
Amen
Amen
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Letters From The Heart 26
I love listening to music…I love singing…I love to worship God and I don’t want to wait until a Sunday service to do it. Here are some links to some of my favorite worship songs:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TKijL5BnJtg&feature=channel_page
More of You Jesus
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rlBAf_SKwPQ&feature=related
Jesus Messiah
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wwJEdo1FlMo
From The Inside Out
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6b35E8zzASk
Our God Saves
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UBmTEFBE34Y&feature=channel_page
Children and Kings
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8zSmICsax3o&feature=channel_page
Holding Onto You
John 4:23-24 Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth."
Mom is doing great! She is walking well and eating well and she is ready to do something, anything; she is bored! She misses her work too. I am still reading to her everyday. Today we read about Lazarus. I have a song about him too!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TKijL5BnJtg&feature=channel_page
More of You Jesus
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rlBAf_SKwPQ&feature=related
Jesus Messiah
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wwJEdo1FlMo
From The Inside Out
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6b35E8zzASk
Our God Saves
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UBmTEFBE34Y&feature=channel_page
Children and Kings
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8zSmICsax3o&feature=channel_page
Holding Onto You
John 4:23-24 Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth."
Mom is doing great! She is walking well and eating well and she is ready to do something, anything; she is bored! She misses her work too. I am still reading to her everyday. Today we read about Lazarus. I have a song about him too!
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Letters From The Heart 25
The definition of Change: to become different, to become altered or modified, to become transformed or converted.
That definition could come straight from God’s word. 2 Corinthians 5:17 Those who become Christians become new persons. They are not the same anymore, the old life is gone. A new life has begun. But it doesn’t end there. Philippians 1:6 I am sure that God who began a good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on that day when Christ Jesus comes back again.
God did not create us to stay as we are. What good would that do? Nothing. So change is good, sometimes it hurts but they are good growing pains. I am please to keep writing about the changes occurring in my mother and also the changes taking place in our relationship. God is good, let Him in, allow Him to change your heart and the way you think and feel. Each of us has something to offer the Lord. Each of us has something we can change to bring glory to our Father. Ask seek knock and the door will be open to you.
I read to her today…we are having good discussions. I can’t tell you how important this time with mom means to me. I feel so so blessed!
That definition could come straight from God’s word. 2 Corinthians 5:17 Those who become Christians become new persons. They are not the same anymore, the old life is gone. A new life has begun. But it doesn’t end there. Philippians 1:6 I am sure that God who began a good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on that day when Christ Jesus comes back again.
God did not create us to stay as we are. What good would that do? Nothing. So change is good, sometimes it hurts but they are good growing pains. I am please to keep writing about the changes occurring in my mother and also the changes taking place in our relationship. God is good, let Him in, allow Him to change your heart and the way you think and feel. Each of us has something to offer the Lord. Each of us has something we can change to bring glory to our Father. Ask seek knock and the door will be open to you.
I read to her today…we are having good discussions. I can’t tell you how important this time with mom means to me. I feel so so blessed!
Mom brought us out for lunch today to celebrate Fayth birthday which was on the 3rd and Ben’s birthday which is tomorrow. She just loves the “O II” restaurant in town.
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Saturday, January 3, 2009
Letters From The Heart 24
Happy 14th Birthday Fayth!
Time goes by so quickly; it brings me to wonder how much time we spend on earthly matters when the real purpose for living is in Jesus Christ. Time. How do we spend our time? When I was “younger” I made a mess out of my time. I really wondered why God allowed me to be changed by Him. I am not worthy… I understand now that it’s because of His grace. He sent His Son Jesus to make all things new. It was also my willingness to admit I was wrong and be humble. God has taught me that living is not for me but for Him. He gave me this life; he will take it away someday. He is the One who gave each of us breath, does it not make sense that we should give back to Him what He gave? So many people lost in this world. They desire money, material possessions, bigger this better that, my way or the highway and it’s all about selfishness. Those in my own family are lost to this world; even those closest to me. It says in Gods word that families will be against each other for the sake of following Jesus. Matthew 10:21-22
I see some people in my family making choices that make my heart drop. The places they choose to be or the shows on TV they watch or the material they read. And I know that they think we are judging them but the truth is this, you can’t change what you don’t know and being in God’s word is an instruction book to living life. So it’s not that we are judging, it’s that God has revealed truth to us.
I come to the conclusion that although it’s sometimes challenging I need to be what God wants me to be. If I get persecuted, or my family and friends gossip, it’s not my wrath but God’s; Romans 12.
I pray that those lost in my family can be saved but not just for the sake of getting a free pass into heaven but being transform from the inside out. To know their purpose and to be rewarded in heaven for following a God who has created them.
I see my mom being transformed from the inside out and it’s one of the most beautiful things I have ever witnessed. Who would have thought…but I am reminded of that scripture when Jesus said “you of little faith?” And I don’t want to be of little faith. All things are possible to those who believe.
Mom had another great day! I read to her about the lady at the well. How she came to the well at noon because of her shame but How Jesus gave her living water. Oh thank you Jesus that we don’t have to go thirty.
Psalm 90:12 Teach us to make the most out of our time, so we may grow in wisdom.
Ephesians 5:15-20 Be careful how you live, not as fools but as those who are wise. Make the most out of every opportunity for doing good in these evil days. Don’t act thoughtlessly, but try to understand what the Lord wants you to do. Don’t be drunk with wine, because that will ruin your life. Instead, let the Holy Spirit fill and control you. Then you will sing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs among yourselves, making music to the Lord in your hearts. And you will always give thanks for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.
I see some people in my family making choices that make my heart drop. The places they choose to be or the shows on TV they watch or the material they read. And I know that they think we are judging them but the truth is this, you can’t change what you don’t know and being in God’s word is an instruction book to living life. So it’s not that we are judging, it’s that God has revealed truth to us.
I come to the conclusion that although it’s sometimes challenging I need to be what God wants me to be. If I get persecuted, or my family and friends gossip, it’s not my wrath but God’s; Romans 12.
I pray that those lost in my family can be saved but not just for the sake of getting a free pass into heaven but being transform from the inside out. To know their purpose and to be rewarded in heaven for following a God who has created them.
I see my mom being transformed from the inside out and it’s one of the most beautiful things I have ever witnessed. Who would have thought…but I am reminded of that scripture when Jesus said “you of little faith?” And I don’t want to be of little faith. All things are possible to those who believe.
Mom had another great day! I read to her about the lady at the well. How she came to the well at noon because of her shame but How Jesus gave her living water. Oh thank you Jesus that we don’t have to go thirty.
Psalm 90:12 Teach us to make the most out of our time, so we may grow in wisdom.
Ephesians 5:15-20 Be careful how you live, not as fools but as those who are wise. Make the most out of every opportunity for doing good in these evil days. Don’t act thoughtlessly, but try to understand what the Lord wants you to do. Don’t be drunk with wine, because that will ruin your life. Instead, let the Holy Spirit fill and control you. Then you will sing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs among yourselves, making music to the Lord in your hearts. And you will always give thanks for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=suBPq0o3Yvw
Please click on this song, it is one of my very favorites. You will just feel the presence of the Holy Spirit. Please listen to it and let God work in your heart.
Blessings to you!
Friday, January 2, 2009
Letters From The Heart 23
Mom's still in good spirits today. She had a check-up and everything is fine; her blood work, weight, blood pressure; everything looks good. She doesn't go back until January 27, 2009.
We went shopping and she bought a bigger refrigerate for upstairs.
We read together today.
She seems so happy...
The children are really enjoying grandma being here. It's so sweet!
It was a LONG day so off to bed to read I go...
Psalm 32:8 The Lord says, "I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you."
We went shopping and she bought a bigger refrigerate for upstairs.
We read together today.
She seems so happy...
The children are really enjoying grandma being here. It's so sweet!
It was a LONG day so off to bed to read I go...
Psalm 32:8 The Lord says, "I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you."
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Letters From The Heart 22
Happy New Year!
2009
It's been on my heart for sometime now to start reading passages from the bible to mom everyday. And from time to time I would think of asking her and this morning I prayed and asked God to give me the words; so I went upstairs and I said "mom I need to ask you something, I would like to spend some time reading God 's word to you everyday, it's important to me." and she responded very well to my request. The neat thing is later on when I went to check on her she told me that she had been thinking of asking me to do that very thing. This will be an important time for both of us and I thank God for His timing. I think the reason I hesitated to ask mom in the beginning of her stay here was probably because the timing was off, that's why I believe God had me wait. She wasn't ready and she could of told me no. I am usually the one who cannot wait especially if I see what good can come out of it but God has shown me in great detail how to wait on Him. Our intentions can be very good, our timing can be off. We must wait upon the Lord.
Tonight we prayed and I read to mom. I am starting in the Gospel of John. I look forward to our days to come so we can grow in our faith together. This is the best well spent time I have ever had with my mother and I am excited and come with great expectations from my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
I am so thankful...God is a God of restoration! He is the great Restorer and the Mighty Healer. He has restore my relationship with my mom and He has healed the hurt and pain and He has given me my mother. God does answer prayer.
Psalm 73:24-26 You will keep on guiding me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny. Whom have I in heaven but you? I desire you more than anything on earth. My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sR8rlTIU8_Y&feature=channel_page
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Letters From The Heart 21
Today was a very cold brisk day. One of those days where you want to stay inside, sit by the fire and drink hot coco! But we went out; mom wanted to go to the Christian book store and on the way there I went right through a stop light, I couldn't stop...the roads were to slick. It made mom sick to her stomach. I just smiled and thanked God for protecting us.We had a wonderful visit with Aunt Sharon & Aunt Charlene; we missed you Aunt Carol, hope your feeling better. Thank you for sharing your time with us, I know everyone is busy these days so again thank you for spending time with us. Mom was so happy to see you! And so was I.
I was able to get on line tonight and get mom's Medicare D finished. I pray I picked the right plan for her. It took some time to go through all the plans but it's done now so mom won’t need to worry anymore. Ben was helpful too. He was able to get me started.
I almost forgot it was New Years Eve; Fayth just came in here to ask me what we were going to do, so I better find something fun to do. I will probably call my friend Michelle... or the family Christian radio station will be at skate rink tonight, maybe I'll take mom roller skating!!! She use to love roller skating!
Since it's almost a new year, let us be reminded that it doesn't take a new years resolution to change, God can change our hearts any day, anytime, anywhere.
Lamentations 3:23 Great is thy faithfulness; His mercies begin afresh each day.
May you have a Blessed New Year!
I almost forgot it was New Years Eve; Fayth just came in here to ask me what we were going to do, so I better find something fun to do. I will probably call my friend Michelle... or the family Christian radio station will be at skate rink tonight, maybe I'll take mom roller skating!!! She use to love roller skating!
Since it's almost a new year, let us be reminded that it doesn't take a new years resolution to change, God can change our hearts any day, anytime, anywhere.
Lamentations 3:23 Great is thy faithfulness; His mercies begin afresh each day.
May you have a Blessed New Year!
Monday, December 29, 2008
Letters From The Heart 20
Mom had a great day, she was feeling good and full of energy. She wanted to take a drive and feel the warmth of the sun on her face and she was cracking up laughing for no reason...mom and I laughed and laughed, that kind of laugh you get when you just can't stop and you forget what your laughing about. She had a wonderful day! We were driving to Wal-Mart to get her eyes checked and she said "I feel like Jesus healed me" Oh Lord in Heaven I pray for that to be true!
It was a beautiful day!
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will direct your paths.
It was a beautiful day!
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will direct your paths.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Letters From The Heart 19
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Mom watched her video last night from all of us kids. She wanted someone to watch it with her so I did. She cried and laughed and cried some more... After watching it I found myself being so sad...There was something missing in that video. It wasn't love nor affection towards mom, because we all really love her, I think it was childhood. I thought of my relationship with my mother and I compared it to the relationships I have with my own children. I missed out on so much with my mom...someone to read me books and tuck me in at night and talk to me when I needed some advise, or just talk to me. I am sad that so much time was wasted...But I have time now, time the Lord will allow and I am thankful.
I remember as a teenager feeling so lost and just wanting to die. I felt I got a raw deal out of life and didn't know a reason for living. I would get myself in these deep deep depressions and thoughts of suicide would run ramped in my head. I remember hatred would flow through my veins. Hatred towards my mother. I had no respect for her..."Has anyone ever asked you if you could change anything in your life what would it be"? I use to say nothing because I am who I am because of my past. But I would of changed the way I treated my mother. Regret would fill my heart if I let it but Christ has shown me how to forgive even if I am the one who needs forgiveness.
I could sit and wondering my life away but I don't have the time or energy. Instead I can make the most out of it now and ask God to keep molding me and shaping me to become the person He wants me to be.
Mike and Shanna paid us a surprise visit today. It was nice getting to know Shanna some more. I made delicious homemade pizza for dinner. But who knows where the pizza cutter went!
Habakkuk 3:17-19 Even though the fig trees have no blossoms, and there are no grapes on the vine; even though the olive crops fail, and the fields lie empty and barren; even though the flocks die in the fields, and the cattle barns are empty, yet I will rejoice in the LORD! I will be joyful in the God of my salvation. The Sovereign LORD is my strength! He will make me as surefooted as a deer and bring me safely over the mountains.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Letters From The Heart 18
Pictures taken tonight at the Christmas Eve Service. The Worship Team and The Mai Family. A Love So Amazing...
The greatest gift is Jesus!
Tonight was beautiful, we had an evangelist Christmas Eve message where many were saved!
After the service Ben took our family home to start our tradition of reading the book "The Tale of Three Trees" retold by Angela Elwell Hunt. Mom loved the story and as always it made me cry. Another tradition in our family is to write a letter to Jesus and share what our gift is to Him each year. I told mom that if she wanted to write a letter she could, I said that last year Fayth told Jesus she was going to give Him more faith and trust. And this year Dawson wrote that he was going to give Him the gift of more prayer. And do you know what mom said?!? She said I'm going to give Him my heart! I said "that's the best gift you can give" and we cried... Thank you Lord Jesus!
John 3:16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Letters From The Heart 17
It’s Christmas Time!
We had our family Christmas party on Saturday, December 20th, 2008.
We played games like; The Christmas Jar (this game is all about a Christ Centered Christmas), Take Your Pick, Apples to Apples, Linkity and we had our white elephant gift! And we ate and ate and ate! But before we ate we prayed a blessing on us and thanked God for the gift of Jesus. I pray that a tiny seed was planted into the hearts of many.
Mike Jr. and his family were not feeling well; they came down with the flu. They were missed! I pray for a quick recovery and hopefully we will see them soon.
Mom doesn’t know this yet but all of her children put together a tribute for her on video. Each of us took our turn sitting by the fireplace talking to mom from our hearts. She will receive that on Christmas Day. It will be a very special gift.
I soooo see God’s favor in my life…I see Him working in ways that I could never have imagined. God has taken my mothers illness and brought us children closer together and brought mom to Jesus. I received a call from Mike on Sunday, I couldn’t believe it. We talked about God. Mike wanted to know his purpose. I told him that each of us has been blessed with a gift from God and we are to use it for His glory. I told him that this life is preparing us for the future; the future will be either heaven or hell. What we do today matters, do we want to live for ourselves and have eternal agony or live for Jesus and have total peace. Mike said he believes that the devil is real. I said to him; you are right, he is real and he wants your soul. Are you going to let him have it!!! We talked for an hour, PLEASE PLEASE be praying that God will use the words He gave me to bring Mike to salvation. First mom, hopefully Mike….Do you see God’s perfect plan in all of this…God is blessing this family. God’s love is never too late to accept. He is waiting patiently for the lost.
Thank you everyone for your prayers!
Enjoy the pictures and click on them to be enlarged.
We had our family Christmas party on Saturday, December 20th, 2008.
We played games like; The Christmas Jar (this game is all about a Christ Centered Christmas), Take Your Pick, Apples to Apples, Linkity and we had our white elephant gift! And we ate and ate and ate! But before we ate we prayed a blessing on us and thanked God for the gift of Jesus. I pray that a tiny seed was planted into the hearts of many.
Mike Jr. and his family were not feeling well; they came down with the flu. They were missed! I pray for a quick recovery and hopefully we will see them soon.
Mom doesn’t know this yet but all of her children put together a tribute for her on video. Each of us took our turn sitting by the fireplace talking to mom from our hearts. She will receive that on Christmas Day. It will be a very special gift.
I soooo see God’s favor in my life…I see Him working in ways that I could never have imagined. God has taken my mothers illness and brought us children closer together and brought mom to Jesus. I received a call from Mike on Sunday, I couldn’t believe it. We talked about God. Mike wanted to know his purpose. I told him that each of us has been blessed with a gift from God and we are to use it for His glory. I told him that this life is preparing us for the future; the future will be either heaven or hell. What we do today matters, do we want to live for ourselves and have eternal agony or live for Jesus and have total peace. Mike said he believes that the devil is real. I said to him; you are right, he is real and he wants your soul. Are you going to let him have it!!! We talked for an hour, PLEASE PLEASE be praying that God will use the words He gave me to bring Mike to salvation. First mom, hopefully Mike….Do you see God’s perfect plan in all of this…God is blessing this family. God’s love is never too late to accept. He is waiting patiently for the lost.
Thank you everyone for your prayers!
Enjoy the pictures and click on them to be enlarged.
Have a very Blessed Christmas!
2 Corinthians 5:17 Those who become new Christians become new persons. They are not the same anymore, for the old life is gone. A new life has begun!
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